sparkstars

--> Heeee!

2008-02-21T23:32:00.003+08:00

True yoga is seriously making us all super crazy!!!
We've come up with quite a few pet phrases which will follow for many years!!!
We're gonna be legends at true yoga!!! (:
Nandini is damn amazed and impressed with us!
Hopefully Gunisen and Patrick Wee will too!!!
HAHA!!! (:
--> Heeeeee! ~

The latest: --> Heeeee! ~

Overbuddying on the sixth floor has been the next best thing to do!
Especially now that the boys have found a secret pathway from the male toilets!
The best view and the nicest CSOs!!!

--> Heeeee!!! ~

and why is it possible for something built over so long to collapse just like that?
all it took was that little confession from you.
it took so long to build up into something so wonderful,
but it's all gone in a flash of light.
maybe she's right.
maybe they're all right.

wakey wakey rise and shine! quickly quickly!

2008-02-19T14:57:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, THE SUPER LONG AWAITED OFF DAY!!! (:

true yoga day in and day out is seriously sucking everything out of me.
put simply, true yoga is seriously fucking my life upside down.
thank god for friends who stick it through thick and thin with me,
cursing and swearing at all the cheapos who aren't even shy about it,
wrecking our brains in a bid to put across our plated packages most attractively,
and having the time of our lives being damn "XIA LAN".
we came up with a couple of ways to make ourselves feel better after wasting time.
all the "HENG AH!", "THANK GOD!" and "OH YES, VERY GOOD, SAVE THE TREES!"

and definitely,
the fucking long hours isn't doing the job any favours if any at all.
all the stress just flows in like nothing at all.
we're going so crazy, we're dreaming of presos and TOs.
i dreamt of myself doing price preso, asking Marc for TO.
Melvin dreamt telling himself in the dream that the prospect was a black and to make sure he got the credit card before he woke up. HAHA! and he's dreaming other weird dreams too.
after this job, i'm seriously gonna need my LOMBA life back for awhile.

this job redefined neglect as well.
something i really never intended for.
this job stressed me and ruined the traditions.
our used to be nightly conversations, we have barely once a month now.
but the cycle of it never fades away, and it's still quite funny.
and none of this really matters eventually.

back to MPC tmr. OH WOW!!!
but soon, it'll be LOMBA time! (:

shameless surresh

2008-02-12T23:49:00.001+08:00

in order to close,
it's very crucial to first create and make obvious the value,
creating a fogged (but usually very realistic) illusion,
making the other concerns insignificantly minor.
we'd say: "doing yoga will help you achieve your goal of xxx."
this illusion we can create easily.
but the mind and heart to make it reality is not in our control;
we can't force you down thrice a week for yoga just so you'll achieve your goals!
it's all in your heart and mind.
whether you feel that the little time away from 'your life' is worth it.

we used to see the similar value,
but now, i'm honestly losing it.
like investing both time and money but seeing no results.
we'd say: "so many years doing it and still no results?"
stupid people would continue without any evaluations.
i may not be smart, but i ain't stupid either.
even something supposedly so genuine and treasured can't buy honesty.
faith only managed to buy a little more time.

i fully see why you understand my perception on it,
but don't necessarily agree with me one bit.
simply because you see the full picture,
but all i received was an incompletely painted art piece.
you understand me well enough to predict my response.
so you conveniently decided to hide the jigsaw pieces.
but did it ever occur to you that my figuring it out on my own could bring more hurt?
the emotions now are even more complex than before.

if you actually bothered to give it a shot,
either sweet-talk or aggression would be able to help you close me.
but if there isn't a value to start off with in the first place,
or the value i see in it decreases with time,
it'll only be a matter of time before i'll be glad my commitment is over.
or i'll just request a transfer or desperate termination.

i'll only come back wanting to renew if i actually see results as promised.
and i'll only upgrade if i feel it could be much better.

but now?
it seems like all the memories and sacrifices;
all the laughter and tears, hopes and fears we'll only have as memories.
because the value of it just doesn't weigh enough to request for 5 mins, let alone 15.
maybe you still haven't seen the value of it all.
and because you call on the masters only when you see an upcoming DnD.
but if not, they can seriously fuck off.
but maybe on a second thought,
you actually do see the value of it all,
only you've been fucking taking it all for granted because they're easy preys.

but watch it,
the rubber band will snap eventually.
try stretching it more.

it's late,
my thoughts aren't flowing too well.
that's the best i can manage.
it's not supposed to make sense to randoms.
HUH?

happy birthday melvin! (:

2008-02-02T12:12:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MELVIN!!!! (:

Though we've barely known each other for a month, and have over-buddied for barely two weeks, it's still been super great knowing you!!! Going to work together in the morning (if i'm not late), late night dinners and running after the last trains to get back home! All the long intercoms with major discussions, and dinners aiming at a certain conclusion! And you, constantly trying to get me to close BIG! So what if we over-buddy? SO LONG AS WE MAKE MONEY!!! (: See you at work tmr (if you see this today or ever) and we'll hit our NMS goal this month!!! And come end feb, there'll only be one thing right for us to do (:

Slightly more than half day work yesterday,
then shopping with Sum for Melvin's birthday present! HAHA!
and helping Sum's friend Eugene with some Prudential survey.
Haha it was pretty funny and all the loopholes were exposed!
Haha he's a Financial Consultant, and both Sum and i are Membership Consultants.
Basically, we're all closers.
And so i learnt, it's damn challenging trying to close a closer. LIKE REALLY!

And dinner at Dempsy, followed by drinks at Giraffe!
I'm gonna miss Leea so much!!
and it was all great fun!!!
hahahha the boys are DAMN funny!!!
couldn't stop laughing the whole time despite feeling so LOMBA!
Leea laughed so bad she teared and almost had her mascara smudged!
and Melvin did the one SUPER-WOW thing!!!
and all i can say is: Melvin is one SUPER-CLOSER! (:

over-buddys make MONEY!

2008-02-01T00:41:00.000+08:00

WORK IS GETTING BETTER,
other than the fact that Siva won't approve leave tmr for Melvin's birthday dinner.
and that seriously sucks to the ultimate max!

Melvin managed to close two terms and Sum managed two dues!!!
so we're looking at the next Adrian and Gordon!!! (:

SO WHAT IF WE OVER-BUDDY;
SO LONG AS WE MAKE MONEY!!! (:

AND SO WHAT IF YOU THINK I HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE?
basically, i don't give two hoots about what you think of me,
because at the end of the day,
my NMS is uncountable times of yours, simply because yours is still 0.

on another note,
i know i promised i'll get over it. but i'm sorry, i really tried, and i can't.
the slightest thought of it still makes my blood boil.
i treated you like a friend, and this is what i got back in return.
all i can say now is: don't ever count on me to save your ass.
please, continue daydreaming.
BE MY GUEST.

winners vs. losers

2008-01-31T00:40:00.000+08:00

life is not about all the ups and downs;
it's more about the people around you.

friends who you've barely known for a month,
but have stuck it through with you this month days in and out,
and will continue to do so for month in future.

Winners make money, losers OVER-BUDDY!!! (:
-Melvin Chua, 30th January 08

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stupid and crazy

2008-01-27T16:02:00.000+08:00

little pop-by visit from jer and colin at work yesterday!!!
who very kindly provided us with 150 BRs,
getting us all excited,
giving them more and more of BR sheets. HAHA!
so Melvin's, Sum's and my BR quotas for the day were met!

slacked the day through feeling really super tired.
one pathetic show which failed to be a sale even after Gordon's TO.
but it's alright, haha i was far damn too tired and lethargic to actually bother.
i think i went a little too pushy with this guy,
probably concentrating on the wrong concerns.
OH WELLS, IT'S ALL ABOUT A LEARNING PROCESS.
SO I SHALL CHILL, RELAX AND TAKE IT EASY!!! (:

dinner after work with Melvin and Sum,
then heading to Jason's pub for drinks after to celebrate Serene's birthday (:
had a really good time even thou the music was really quite old.
debates with Melvin and Gordon kept me feeling higher and more energetic,
with desperate attempts to close them instead of letting them close me.
Melvin's damn good man, it's tiring trying to close him! tiring even to TRY.
Gordon's little prep talk was really inspirational, like really!
and Melvin's with a MAYBE now!!! (:
seriously, Gordon's the only veteran around i'm really comfortable with.
and he's almost the only respectable, helpful, kind, and not selling fishes.
and Rui's very entertaining magic tricks which really leave you cursing and swearing.
hahahaha he should really quit true yoga and start true magic.

amazing (as always!) bestie talk into the wee hours of the morning (:
whining, complaining and cursing at all the rubbish going on in our lives,
serious talk over the various issues affecting us,
making stupid silly jokes and laughing over all the silly nonsense traditions of ours.
his laziness to which i have no comments, i almost wanted to slap him. HAHA!
ended off feeling SO tired i could feel my mind drifting off each time i closed my eyes.
nothing surprising since i had THREE debates in ONE night.
that's really killer considering the quick-wittedness of them three.

and i've got an appointment with Sum tmr morning for serious yoga. HAHA!!!

friends and work!

2008-01-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

WORK IS SERIOUSLY GETTING BETTER!!! (:

and that's partly cos i'm losing seriousness at work!!! HAHA!
it's pretty interesting how time goes by at work.
yeah sure, appointments are made,
PRESENTATIONS LEADING TO SALES, WOOOHOOO!!!!
the phone is a very interesting tool of technology, seriously!
well, to be honest, i've never could really live without the phone.
time at work;
i spend by having training, making appointments,
doing presentations and closing sales! (:(:(:
and definitely,
on the intercom with Serene discussing if i'm lunching in/out and deciding lunch,
or Melvin/Sum discussing the lunch out menu and talking rubbish,
or eveasdropping on Dave's conversation sweet-talking his 'friends',
or out slacking with Melvin, Sum, Leea and Klive on the pretext of collecting BRs,
or blatantly slacking in the office doing what Marc calls CFs (cluster fuck).
and definitely not forgetting the little surprise calls to friends!!!
and along comes our list of little fun things we used to do together!!! (:

work sucks only cos i've got some really NICE colleagues.
names shall not be mentioned here,
but the few i've confided in will definitely know their names by heart HAHA!
a few ups and downs here and there, but hey! which job doesn't??
I told Melvin today that "Life is full of ups and downs",
but he corrected me with "NO, Life is about the people around you!",
which made sense there and then,
me being so super mad with *** after my note.

Seriously, work would seriously suck without Melvin, Sum, Klive, Leea and Gordon.
It was MAJOR thanks to Leea that i managed to seal the Black Card!! (:
It was HER appointment!!! (: Presos are fun, Setting up isn't.

This time around,
coming back from Hong Kong,
making little discoveries here and there,
and with the little incident at work yesterday which shall not be mentioned here,
and what Klive mentioned to me regarding it,
it's such a wonder how shamelessly competitve even FRIENDS can get around you.
and i really mean SHAMELESSLY competitive.

that said,
even thou you knew i wouldn't condone it one bit,
and understood the situation perfectly well,
i'm still really glad to have known about it from you,
having gone through the entire process of me finding out about it, getting all pissed off and disgusted, unnecessary complaining and explaining it to you to attempting to get over it together.
thank God you understood,
and that's why we'll always be on each other's side.

Hong Kong was GREAT!
i'll upload photos another time,
work tmr, with only 2 pathetic appointments.
good luck to me.

hongkong!

2008-01-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

BYE SINGAPORE!
SEE YOU AGAIN IN 10 DAYS.

i'm excited.
i've kicked you.
test time!

HELLO HONGKONG! (:

the three letters

2008-01-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

all the lightning through last night,

like simple crisp flashes in the sky,

and the story behind spoke for itself.

class gathering@the glass house

2008-01-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

alright my life has basically been quite boring the past few days,
WORK WORK WORK AND MORE WORK.
it pretty much sucked the first few days,
but it's getting better, much better.
the people there are actually pretty fun! (:
but i'm still very much looking forward to HONGGGKONGGGG! (:(:(:

06S19 class gathering @ the glass house (so says gary)!

final few days before jinghao, xuanfeng and jeremy get enlisted!
enjoy the photos, they're about the last you'll see of them HAIRFUL! (:
there'll be photo updates with all the cleanly shaved heads nearing CNY!
gary, the class rep will be organizing the class gathering then, as usual (:

so jinghao and xuanfeng will be going in on friday and jeremy on saturday! (:

so, all the best boys!!! (:
the past 2 years with you boys have really been extremely fun! (:

JINGHAO with his ultra lameness,
constantly emphasising that he's Mr Chay's FAVOURITE STUDENT,
influencing all the guys into speaking mandarin despite us starting off as an english speaking class!

XUAN FENG with all his sleepiness,
constantly nodding off in ALL lectures and tutorials,
maybe he'll master the art of sleeping while standing at attention!

JEREMY the famous SAJC rugby eyecandy!
always up to all his rubbish super lame antics in class,
folding roses in class out of boredom which yihui proudly presented to fans of his.

bye 2007!

2007-12-31T00:57:00.000+08:00

MY NEW LOVE (sponsors all welcomed!)

Funan today with my special!! (:
and she got herself a Canon!
was supposed to be helping my mom run errands.
but ended up getting SUPER DUPER enticed by this PURE AND INNOCENT!
And this Panasonic Lumix has totally different functions,
so with both cameras together with us in HK,
we'll be able to work MAGIC! (:
I really can't wait!!! But i need COLD, HARD CASH :(

And, the usual love notes to end the lovely year!!! (:

MOM AND DAD

The year has been pretty great for us despite the distance between. Thank You for everything. All that you both did both before and during exams really warmed my heart! I'm proud to have parents like you. May 2008 be just as great for us all. I love you. HAPPY 2008! (:

ADELIA, ATHENA & ALEVIA

ADELIA: The crazy kiasu spider of the family! It's been wonderful having heart-to-hearts till the crazy hours in the night! Sisterly talks about anything and everything! PErsevere through the next two years alright! It'll be SUPER FUN!!! (:
ATHENA: The generously rich one! Thanks for all your little random treats each time you go walking around! And helping contribute to familial presents makes it more pleasant for me too!! Study Hard babe! And please, be more GRacious!!!
ALEVIA: The sweetest one!!! (: The wonder at how close we are despite the vast age gap!! You're still always so nice to me even thou i can get damn mean to you at times!!! Study harder and faster my dear!!! You'll always be the DA of the family!!! (:

CLARENCE

Hello bestie. It's been long don't you think?! I'd say the year has been such a ROLLER COASTER for us both! Totally from the funniest rubbish/stories and sweetest times/invisibles to the most stressful pre/post exams and the craziest tempers/tantrums! All the memories, too long to list! (:

JERALDINE

My special!!! I'm really super excited over Hong Kong!!!! (: Anyways, you've been such a great friend to me! All the 3am random calls! Another conscious brain thinking for me when I'm lost in my own crazy world! All the fun times we've had at SR Gardens from Coffee Bean suicidal mugging to supper&drinks with PJK! (:

GARY

My supreme babe!!! For always being the best to me!!! My constant supply of SA gossips and list of things to laugh at!!! For always being there for me in school no matter what happened, going to extremes to cheer me up during my dullest days and letting me call randomly to ask questions! (:

MELISSA

My love!!! All the crazy laughter!!! Somehow we'll always find something to laugh endlessly about!!! Not forgetting all the endless whinings about our mothers!! Your presence always made school so much more bearable!!! (:

FANNY

Your all getting emo was really shocking for me! But at least it's all cleared up now! 4 years of fantastic friendships and still counting!!! (: All our promises will come true yes??!!! (: Whenever all's down, think: PAYCHECK!!! (:

KRISTAL

My crazily in love darling!! I'm gonna visit you in Buffalo, self-invited!!! (: Your apartment better leave something for me! For anything that happens, you know who'll always be here for you!!! (: Hit town with Sook Chun just like Sec 1 days before she goes back to Australia alright?

JOHN

Food Buddy!!! And our constant hunt for all the best food in town!!! Endless eating eating and more eatinggggg!!! For always coloring our lonesome town days!!! More food hunts please! I'm gonna stop before i get hungry!!

PIROM, JAMES & KIERAN

It's been really excellently wonderful knowing you guys!!! All the fun we've had at SR Gardens, mugging, having heart to hearts and drinking!!! (: It's so sad to see you boys leave one by one, but you'd better come back for summer hols alright! It'll be so different without you!!

YIHUI, ESTHER & JESLYN

All my darlings from school!!! The 3 favourites who make lessons so much more interesting and filled with rubbish!!! Lectures, tutorials and breaks and everything actually become looking-forward worthy!!! I definitely wouldn't have been able to survive through school without you three!!! (:

AND A LARGER THAN EARTH THANK YOU TO EVERYONE ELSE WHO'S MADE MY YEAR SUCH A GREAT ONE!!! HAPPY NEW 2008 EVERYONE!!! (: LOVES!!! (:

merry x'mas!!!

2007-12-24T00:15:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! (:

CHRISTMAS EVEY this year was really greattttt!!! (:
a super pleasant surprise in the morning from Nicholas Chia!! (:
met him at kovan to collect presents!!!!;
cookies baked by both Billy and himself, and a melon flavored kit-kat from japan! (:
haha quite funny how Chia told me he baked them!!!
superrrrrrr sweeeeetttt of them both please (:
it was so super pleasantly unexpected!!! (:
THANK YOU BOYS! (:

headed back home after to decorate the CHRISTMAS TREE!!! (:
hahahaha it was fun alright!!! (:
i stole a couple of ideas from the tree Dan decorated for Serena in Gossip Girl! haha!!
hmmm like think: HUGE BIG RED RIBBON ON THE TOP!!! (:
there weren't much rubbish to hang so i still think the tree looks pretty naked.
i really like christmas trees SO SUPER DENSELY FILLED with pretty decorations!!!
SOOOOO PRETTTTTYYYYY!!! (:

vivo later on with John rushing out last minute christmas shopping!
hahahaha we both almost died from all the walking PLUS bagsss!!! (Thanks John!)
i think John hates me for being such a perfectionist when it comes to presents! (Sorry John!)
like everything has to be reallllyyyyy perfect.
i'd make him go AROUND AND AROUND AND AROUND just to find the perfect gifts!

town in the evening/night with JERALDINE LEE JIA XIN!!! (:
whom i haven't met in A SUPER DUPER LONGGGGG TIMEEEEE!!!
met at P.S then moved to Taka and AROUND AND AROUND.
strolled past Colin at work! haha!
shopped, dinnered and gift exchanged!!!!
Jer and John got me REALLYYY REALLYYY SUPER DUPER niceeeee gifts from M.A.C!!!
THANK YOU SPECIAL & FB!!! (:

i totally fell in love with a winter jacket at guess! OMGOSHHHHH.
and Colin just had to constantly remind me that i haven't even booked tickets!!

More gift exchanges tmrrr!!! (:

byeeee johnsons (:

2007-12-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

BON VOYAGE JOHNSONS! (:

so james and timmy are probably already on the plane right now,
on the way to melbourne for good.
it's really been great knowing them both!!

JAMES; the super tall funnily annoying guy, who made me jump constantly like a fool at orchard mrt just to get my thing back from him on our first meeting, who john always had to drag away for chicken rice whenever he disturbed our coffee bean study sessions, who always managed to help me finish my black forest/ultimate ice blends only to complain how he didn't like it at all, who always managed to make a stupid joke over nothing, who drank ice-lemon tea with sugar syrup, who never let my phone off before maxing out my memory space by taking rubbish photos, who did so so so many funny things being drunk on skype, etc. many beautiful memories with this TALL guy!!! (:

TIMMY; the small tiny boy! the first ever guy i've ever fawned over cos he's REALLYYY SOOOO CUTE!!! shocking john and jer because i didn't even get mad at him for throwing fries down my shirt (laughing it off instead), the boy everyone (except me) dreaded at all our little meet-ups because he really annoyed everyone else, and used john's phone to chat a girl up from indonesia after his drums making john pay dunno how much for GPRS in the end. HAHA INTERESTING BOY.

come to think about it, those two brothers were really disasters huh!
and chicken rice the next time we meet! (:

LIFE SUCKS WHEN THE PARENTS NAG!

hung around town almost the entire of today just to stay away from home.
i'm quite intent on doing that for the rest of this festive season (esp with the parents home).
walked around town so many times searching for the perfect gifts!
perfect choice wasn't enough, they had to be in perfect condition too!
so round and round and round we went,
looking for a branch with the exact model i wanted,
and that the display piece wasn't the last piece.

dinner at balcony was great!
slow and easy, cos i really didn't wanna come home.
walked super slowly round and round and round jurong central just so i could delay home.
it really sucks to come back home when your parents constantly nag at you about everything,
changing all your moods super drastically,
like from a super-ultra-fantastically-fabulous mood to a deep-down-in-the-pits mood.
so yeah somehow home was just the last place i wanted to go.

sun-kissed!

2007-12-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

YAYYYS GUESS WHO JUST GOT BACK??!!!

hahas the trip to malacca with the family and cousins was a pretty great one!!! (:
aplenty of sightseeing, swimming, sun-kissing, water-polo, barclays and food!!! (:
every single day of the trip was so super fruitful and damn tiring DUH.
was always completely knocked out by the end of the day!!!
all the food there was damn fantastic!!!
we all probably put on lotsa weight from all the eating non-stop!!!
haha it was damn cute constantly having my parents lagging behind whilst sightseeing!!
haha they'd walk like soooo much slower than us all,
walking hand in hand and everything!!!
hahaha damnnnn sweeeeet pleaseeee!!! (:

and all the sightseeing brought back soooo many memories for me from the sec1 malacca trip!!
i discovered that our routes to and fro malacca as planned by sc are like super standard!!!
hmmm how i miss those days please :(
those days with audrey tan constantly strolling along the hotel corridors late at night,
and even up and down the staircases and lifts preventing us from visiting other classes.
and maomao and angkukueh going around for room inspections!
all of us snuggled up watching shanghai noon,
maomao nagging at us all chasing us all to bed cos it was already so late girllls i.e 11pm
haha i quite miss maomao's drama nagging! i'm sure plenty of us do.

and clarence is back from hongkong!!! (:
short and sweet call last night after he landed!!! (:
and i realised i got his trip duration ~~all~~ slightly wrong i.e return date,
and he didn't know i was in malacca cos i didn't tell him.
haha but all that doesn't matter anymore! (:
i still have ONE TWO THREE things to tell him!!! (:
BESTIE CHAT TONIGHT TONIGHT!!! (:

ONE TWO THREE! tuesday ringggggssss!!! (:

2007-12-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

YAYYS!!!! (:
the past week has been pretty good!!! (:
hope next week will be just as good, if not even better!!! (:
ONE, TWO, THREE things to be happy about! (:
but there were also times when i got lost in my own little crazy world for a moment,
and i hated myself so much for making such stupid mistakes.
i'm trying to let go of it now.
but still, random thoughts of it would still kill me right through.

OH ANDREA! GOD KNOWS WHAT'S BEST FOR YOU!! (:

i'll be going to malaysia tmr (sunday) with the family!!! (:
and i have no idea when i'll be back!!!
my dad told us to pack for a week!!! gosh.
but seriously, malaysia is so boring,
and i've been there like infinity times!
i don't wanna hang around too long!!! :/
singapore has so many more things for me to look forward to!!! (:(:(:

CHRISTMAS SHOPPINGGGGG!!! (:(:(:
which my mom's putting me in charge for this year!!!
meaning CASH to spend - only too bad not all of it's for my stuff! :(
but it's gonna be FUN still!!!

IKEA WITH MY LOVEEEEE!!! (:
gosh we've pushed this back soooo longggggg!!!
from prelims to alevels to post alevels and it's almost christmas now!!!
OH MY all the swedish meatballs and heart pillows and fancy lights and what-not!!!

MORE (hopefully EXCELLENT!) NEWS FROM ZHENG WEI!!! (:
all the news he's had for me the past week has been FANTABULOUS!!!
i'm hoping so hard this week will be MANY MANY MUCH MUCH MORE MORE EXCELLENTS!!
i'm really keeping my fingers crossed so damn tightly!

BIG FEAST WITH FOODBUDDY!!! (:
i managed to rob john of a huge meal soon after what i found out last night!!!
sorry, i can't disclose it - the huge meal better be REALLLL good!!! (:

AND, clarence should be back from hongkong by the time i return!
gosh i've got a million gazillion things to tell him!!! haha can't wait!!! (:
bestieeeeee timeeeeeeesss are always ZEEE BESTTTT!!! (:
i'm still shocked at how he found out about sunshine empire without my telling!
my gut feeling says it's billy who told him!
but it's okay, at least i know for sure what to do with sunshine empire now! (:
he always knows what to do with all my rubbish despite the rubbish nonsensical nature of it all (:

everyone's going to hongkong!!!
maybe jinghao will meet clarence, chia and jimmy there! haha cool! (:
cannnn'tttt wait for hongggkongggg with my special next year!!! (:
it's gonna be SUPPPEEERRRR FUNNNNNN!!! (:
SPECIALS' WEEK(S) OUT OF TOWN!!! (:(:(:

AND LOVEEEE; ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR FIRST DAY OF WORK!!! XOXO (:

kids at play!

2007-12-10T18:43:00.000+08:00

having only had barely five hours of sleep ~~last night~~ this morning is taking it's toll on me.
it's not even seven in the evening but i'm almost completely knocked out.
last night was really ~~late~~ early but nonetheless FUN (:
my heart almost jumped out when my mom woke up and kinda scared the shit out of me.
it was really crazy; i was hiding behind doors and sneaking to sleep on the couch;
behaving as thou i was some convict!
haha but it seems like a joke looking back! haha!
i'd be really screwed if she realised i was still awake at FIVE in the morning!!
hahahaha haven't been mom-restricted in a really lonnggg timeeeee.

went ice-skating today with my sisters and cousins!
haha it was really FUNNNNN!!! (:
bumped into colleen goh and munling at the rink (:
alex was amazing, haha and DAMN CUTE!!! (:
imagine a four year old gliding on the ice by himself!! haha (:
i tried uploading photos from my phone but i can't get it to work so heck it!
maybe if i actually find the energy later i'll upload it. haha.

the weather's perfect to just curl up on my favourite couch with a good book!! (:

completeeeee meltdownnnn

2007-12-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

I WOKE UP AT 6.30AM THIS MORNING!!! (:
went to the market with bryan to get foodstuffs for family BBQ tmr! (:
after today, i can confirm my permanently screwed biological clock.
waking up at 6.30 in the morning now gives me a tiny headache in the back of my head!
showered and fell back into dreamland almost immediately after!!!

and woke up to GOSSIP GIRL EPISODE 10!!! (:
i'm awfully pleased with the final outcome of nate and blair's relationship,
completely amazed at chuck bass' departure,
and i'm totally melting: nate archibald is TOTAL HOTNESS!!! (:
the sexy way his hair falls over his face,
and the stern face he keeps when handling his family's problems, (:(:(:(:(:
hahahaha he's officially the second guy i've ever fawned over in my entire life!
first was james' brother timmy johnson! (:
i'm pro-timmy despite the entire group being anti-timmy,
simply because i don't have a PDA he can use to chat indonesian girls up with! HAHA! (:

i really don't know what's wrong,
and i won't ever if you won't tell.
but i know you'll tell me when you're ready,
i'm just hoping really hard you're not gonna do stupid things to numb yourself.
i could be wrong, and everything could be fine, you just being typical you.
if could were true.

2007-12-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S GOOD, WONDERFUL, EXCELLENT, FANTASTIC, FABULOUS, ETC.

life's been so super perfect really,
like the total balance i totally loveeee having in life! (:

FAMILY TIME
+ FRIENDS TIME
+ PARTY TIME
+ MYSELF TIME
-------------------------
WOWNESS!!!!!
-------------------------

the past week has been absolutely great!!!! (:
thus explaining the very high and excellent mood i'm in now.
and i didn't even take a drop of alcohol.
the weather's a little chilly now,
and i'm all wrapped up in my comforter walking around the house,
whining of boredom to almost anyone i have access to.

beatrix's party last night @gardenvilla of sentosa resort and spa was greattttttt (:
sc girls had a wholeeeeeee room to ourselves (:
met algene there too! (:
anywayys we had the beds and all,
watched FRIENDS season one, SECRET, SHREKTHETHIRD, etc,
and managed to catch some sleep! (:
my village chief and i hanging out by the lobby pool at 3am for fresh air and some sleep (:
sweet dreams back in the beds from 4 plus to 9am,
checking out the private pool in the morning was damnnnn niceee (:
watching robin hood cos we didn't know how to operate the remotes,
and breakfast at VIVO (:

time spent with the SC girls is ALWAYS WONDERFUL.
it's like MAGIC.
catching up on all the gossips and what-not,
never fails to make you feel so light-hearted and pleased with life after.
and the SUPER MAGIC is that everyone feels like this!

quoting minqi from her blog:

there's this warmth you know, just to be back with scgirls, laughing, gossipping, laughing, gossipping, laughing, gossipping, HAHA. when i came home and my mum asked me if we talked about our upcoming plans (which university, what course, etc), i realised NO, we didn't talk about that at all, we're all like OH you know so-and-so is prettier/louder/crazier/etc now, OH you know so-and-so is nominated for prom queen (our awesome VANTOK is prom queen of acsi, bravo! scgirls are ZE BEST!), and SCGS used to be like this this this, we used to do that that that, etc. HAHA who cares about university life yo. i don't know, despite all the negativity that i've heard about scgs, i'm still very proud of being an scgirl, i still take pride in telling people that i'm an scgirl, i still have that sense of belonging among scgirls and towards scgs, and no matter how much the school's changed after msheng's retirement, i still hold very fond memories of my life in scgs, where i GREW, not from a primary school kid to a secondary school kid, but from a girl to a lady, a lady with self-respect and dignity. and i don't care what others say about scgs, but one of the best decisions i've ever made in my life so far was to decide to come to SCGS. :)

HMMM NICEEEEEE (:
HELLO KANGPEIRONG AND JOANNELAI,
CLASSREPS OF FOURGRACE,
WHEN CAN WE HAVE A FOURGRACE GATHERING??
FOURSERVICE HAD THEIRS, FOURGRACE NEXT?? (:

and also,
clarence is back from his soccer trip!! haha!
but our activities just have to SUPER-CLASH. damn.
it's okay, we'll have a nice long bestie chat after all this fun's settled!! (:
and our macdonald's study session, and jap food soon!! (:

this week is gonna be a tad more SERIOUS.
paperwork and all, so much to do!
relc with foodbuddy john this tues!!!
i'm soooo excited but i'm keeping my fingers crossed!

haha i'm not the only one skipping prom,
so many other SC girls are skipping it too!
and i realised one shared thought in all. hahas (:

i can't wait for tuesday/wednesday (:
I'M SUPER ADDICTED TO GOSSIP GIRL NOW. rahhhh!!! (:

LONGGGGG DAY TMR WITH THE FAMILY (:
GOODNIGHTS WORLD!! (:

2007-11-23T10:36:00.000+08:00

WAKEY WAKEY, RISE AND SHINE!!! (:

YAYYS THE EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

first day of celebrations were GGOOOOOOOODDD!!! (:
a little detour for some BFW time which is ALWAYS good fun,
and then haircut, manicure and shopping with esther!!! (:
haha we declared yesterday PRINCESS DAY!!! (:

NO MORE PAPERS TO WRITE!!! (:

gary and clarence reminded us that they won't have to write anything for two years,
and the only times they'd be picking up pencils would be for when they're buying toto!
IT'S OKAY GIRLS, LIFE NEEDS A BALANCE RIGHT?!

so the exams are finally over,
no more dreaded WAKEY WAKEYS!!! (:
WAKEY WAKEYS have gone a whole level UP!!! (:
WAKEY WAKEYS now mean a time of FUN JOY AND LAUGHTER!!! (:
and going to bed is such a total JOY now,
because there's no thought of you waking up the next morning having to face the books!!!

i've got aplenty to do,
AND I'M SUPER DUPER WUPER EXCITEDDDDDD!!! (:

okay gotta get changed and hit the outside world!!! (:

2007-11-17T11:09:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY MORNING!

urgh it's SUPER DUPER SIAN.
the thought of having TWO BOOKS of bio to mug through despite others already in town,
just makes me SUPER DUPER SIAN.
i can't wait for all this to be over please.

i'm like sooooo effing tired please.
soooooooo tired i sleep like a total log everynight now,
but still waking up in the morning feeling like i haven't had enough to sleep!

sleep talking should be made illegal i say,
because it'll totally embarrass the shit out of you,
talking rubbish that doesn't make sense AT ALL!!!!
my sleep talk conversation last night fast forwarded a couple of years! HAHA!
hahahahahah okay i'm feeling DAMN SUPER AMAZED at how my mind flows unconsciously.
hahahahahhaha it's soooooo funny!
sleep talking the previous night always gives me a good laugh first thing next morning!!!
and the worst part;
you're not exactly unconscious whilst you're sleep talking;
you're kinda aware of everything that you're saying
and all of your words make perfect sense to you then and then,
but in reality, that entire conversation is just crap.
i should be selective about the calls i answer from now on. HAHA! (:
this is one reason why i probably can't be a banker in future.
imagine me giving crapped up financial advice when my client calls in the middle of the night!
UH OH. i'll see my entire career go down the hill.

2007-11-15T11:49:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT, CANCELING TWO MORE, THREE MORE TO GO!

~~H1 General Paper 1~~
~~H1 General Paper 2~~
~~H2 Mathematics Paper 1~~
~~H2 Chemistry Paper 3~~
~~H2 Biology Paper 2~~
~~H2 Mathematics Paper 2~~
~~H2 Chemistry Paper 2~~
~~H1 Economics Paper~~
H2 Chemistry Paper 1 (friday)
H2 Biology Paper 3 (monday)
H2 Biology Paper 1 (thursday)

I CAN'T WAIT.

hopefully after next week,
all the torture for alevels preparation will be nothing but memories.
all the laughter fun tears whines and what-not we had/went thru studying for the exams.
and all we'll see to remember all this will be DAMN DECENT RESULT SLIPS.
(i'm talking like HELLO PRESTIGIOUS UNIVERSITIES DECENT)

it's been a tough journey for many of us i believe.
all the emotional strains we've all been thru.
all the guys starting to pms like nothing before,
and girls pmsing even more than ever before.
but it's also through this tough journey that we begin to treasure the people around us.
no doubt this period of crazy stress has distanced/broken friendships, relationships up,
but it's brought many people closer/together too! (: mmm.
haha so anyways, in ONE/FOUR/SIX DAYS TIME,
we'll all be free to do whatever we want, and meet up with anyone/everyone! (:

would a friendship fucking sacrificed in the name of studies/busy/love be worth fixing?
disappointment would be a definite, no doubt. but worth fixing?
obviously the friendship didn't weigh sufficiently for basic effort to be put in despite the buzz.
even after all the crap talk about putting friendships over love. that's all just bullshit.
doesn't matter because i guess you're pleased with your life the way it is now; so are we.
disappointment is all we feel, the loss is yours.
DUMB.

i've seriously been craving all sorts of rubbish recently it's crazy.
omgosh i can't wait for alevels to be over, like seriously!
crystal jade with kristal and clara,
ikea, frog porridge and buffets with my love,
japanese fish mart with my bestie,
newton, aston's etc with my food buddy,
lei garden with my mummy dearest,
cascada with the family,
the thought of all that makes me salivate already (:(:(:

haha kristal is the ultimate random bitch,
calling me in the middle of the day telling me how much she missed ms heng.
haha okay babe, we'll drop by SC one day then go for crystal jade okay! (:
lols can't wait! (:(:(: miss you! (:

2007-11-12T00:44:00.001+08:00

BEST FRIENDS FOR LIFE!

seriously,
this bestie of mine is a keeper for life.
i can't even put why or how in words. (i'm not even gonna bother, words would be total understatements!)
i promise to be alot nicer to you from now on (:
-but that doesn't mean you can start being mean!

2007-11-09T11:12:00.001+08:00

life's good when ~~the exams are over!~~ you've got a ONE WEEK BREAK.
someone please remind me that it's just a break: EXAM'S ARE STILL ON-GOING!

my mummy messaged me last night,
reminding me that exams are still very much on-going,
and that i still have TWO WEEKS more to go,
because she feels like i've taken a break much longer than i should have.
somehow i just can't seem to pick myself up very much.
I NEED TO GET MY ASS GOING, LIKE NOW!!!

the 9pm show is getting nicer and nicer!!!
i get super excited for 9pm now everyday (:
the show is getting funnier and funnier!!! lalalalalalalalalala'
i just get SUPER TURNED OFF by the stupid mother-in-law.

ehhhh i should get things done today.
no more waking up long after the sun has settled shining at it's brightest,
and no more longggggg naps even before the sun sets!
in other words: I SHOULD GET BACK TO MUGGING MY ASS OFF!

FIVE MORE PAPERS TO GO:

~~H1 General Paper 1~~
~~H1 General Paper 2~~
~~H2 Mathematics Paper 1~~
~~H2 Chemistry Paper 3~~
~~H2 Biology Paper 2~~
~~H2 Mathematics Paper 2~~
H2 Chemistry Paper 2
H1 Economics Paper
H2 Chemistry Paper 1
H2 Biology Paper 2
H2 Biology Paper 1

i'm barely halfway done, yet i'm behaving like it's all over! TSKTSK.
I'M GONNA HIT THE BOOKS NOW!!!!!!!!

2007-11-07T11:47:00.000+08:00

EIGHTEEN! (:

YAYS! like finally, the day has come!!! (:
hahaha all the nuts out there better stop laughing at me for being excited turning 18!
clarence and i discussed in september that turning 18 seems like a huge whack in your face.
like suddenly you realise... "hey i'm EIGHTEEN!"
it's quite cool looking back at how we used to think big of all the 18 year old teenagers around us.
NOW, I'M EIGHTEEN TOO! (: hahas.

i wouldn't say my life has been perfect throughout the past eighteen years,
it's been filled with aplenty of laughter and joy, whines and cries, ups and downs, lefts and rights.
but that's what makes life i guess.
my birthday smacked right in the middle of A's...
just like how it was at O's...
but it's a trade off; i've had aplenty of holidayed birthdays (:

kisses to love;

mom and dad: thank you for everything you two have done for me throughout my entire life. it's been great and i really feel so thankful for parents like you two. you've both taught me many things, and give me great balance in life. you're both really really amazing in your own ways and i really respect and love that of you. you're both my pride and joy, the best parents i could never have wished more for (: I LOVE YOU (:

adelia, athena and alevia: thank you for always being there for me, all the little gossip sessions we have over dinner and whilst trying to get to sleep. you three make my life complete with all the laughter and lame fun. we share really strong bonds between us and i'm confident this strong bond will last us throughout our lives. even though we get really unreasonable with each other at times, those arguments never last overnight and may they never do (: I LOVE YOU (:

clarence: thank you for everything babe, for always being there for me. even though we do hit rough patches at times, especially during times of stress, it's still been an amazing journey, all the bestie time together; laughing over the most intelligent things, suggesting the craziest things, arguing over the stupidest people (which better stop) and simply just relaxing doing nothing. some things can just be left unspoken between us and just left to assumptions like mine (:

jeraldine: thank you for always being there for me, in the middle of night when i need someone to talk to, at 3am in the morning, etc. it's been wonderful having a friend like you, nice to chat with in an entirely relaxing manner. congratulations on finally completing your HSC, but very 'smartly' getting yourself involved with such a demanding job which will take you away from me (and that seriously sucks). don't forget our after exams coffee bean date! (:

gary: thank you for always being there for me babe, really. me calling you at every single doubt i have with work, and you putting aside everything to answer my questions. really, thank you (: all the little bitch sessions we have all the time have been superbly great and fun! you better stop watching certain programmes ah... not exactly very healthy, explaining the state of your eyes now! (: tsktsk.

melissa: thank you love for all the crazy nut laughter we used to have, but not so recently. missed you ALOT the past few days and weeks, especially while studying bio! looking at all the extended underlinings we make ourselves before filling in the blanks on all the bio notes, recalling how we used to make a mountain out of the little molehills (the lines are so darn short! not long enough! yucks!). let's make huge mountains in town after A's!!! (:

yihui, esther and jeslyn: thank you three for everything, all the fun we have in school everyday. the laughter and craziness we all suffer from during lectures and tutorials, you make my days in school so delightful! Rah Rah Rasputin! (: -(and yihui, i didn't even recall your song during the hypothesis testing question! hahas)

kristal: thank you for always being there for me babe, all the whinings we do all the time, all the fun we get talking endlessly about anything and everything. our years at SC together were fabtastically great and they'll remain in my memories forever, 6 years of friendship, and still going very strong!!! we'll flood crystal jade after my exams okay!!! it's a date then! (:

peirong: thank you for everything babe, you've been a great friend. always there listening to me whine endlessly about how wonderful my life is. and both of us whining about A's together, meeting at trainings occasionally, chatting outside the snack shop. we'll get through A's!!!! yes we can do this!!! we'll hit town with xiuhui after A's, she dated me this morning already! (:

2007-11-02T12:34:00.000+08:00

i really hope i didn't screw math paper one up.
i've lost so many marks already.
that thought alone is kinda depressing.
especially considering how simple everyone thought the paper to be.

i'm disappointed in myself.
i really want an A for math (and chem and bio).
but i think that can probably only remain a regret for the rest of my life.

monday - chemistry paper 3
tuesday - biology paper 2 & math paper 2

i'm lost.
i've still got so many things to study for all those subjects.
where do i start?

2007-11-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

1^st November 2007

Mrs Low Ay Nar
The Principal
Singapore Chinese Girls’ School
190 Dunearn Road
Singapore 309437

Dear Mrs Low,

RE: Feedback

I know this feedback may be a little abrupt, but after a year of seeing the school go under so many changes, I have finally decided to write this letter.

I really appreciate the fact that you are trying to change the school as much as you can. But, as a student, I really feel that it is unnecessary money that is being spent and although I do not know what the other students feel about how the school is now, but for me, I prefer the school as it was – plain, simple and nice.

To me, I think it was the simplicity of the school that made us different from the rest of the other schools.

Thank you for your time and I sincerely hope that you could reconsider.

Thank you.

Yours truly,
Athena Khoo
Student of SCGS.
1CO, 2007

ISN'T MY SISTER JUST SIMPLY SO AMAZING? i believe many of us are so proud of her, only i think the letter has been too nicely phrased. she should have elaborated more on how 'different' sc has become and hopefully try to rid her of her unconscious ignorance of our sc culture.

my sisters were telling me that day, that after honours day she gave a lecture to the students, claiming they didn't know to appreciate the 'good' she's brought to sc.

I BELIEVE SC WAS TRULY SC ONLY WHEN MS HENG WAS AROUND. IT'LL BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR HER TO IDENTIFY WITH THE SC WE ALL RECOGNISE AND LOVE.

2007-10-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

OMG WHAT'S THIS?

alright i got punished alright for attempting to watch tv! URGH!
took a nice long nap this afternoon (i meant for it to last 15 mins only! -the 'benefits' of SNOOZE)
went downstairs wanting to laze in front of the tv for abit,
and while attempting to turn the switch,
i got CUT by the sharp cupboard! damn.
yeah so i've got like a 7cm long cut on my left wrist now. ARGH. it's ugly. damn ugly.
but i still went ahead to watch tv anyways because afterall,
i've already gotten punished right?

I SHOULD BE STUDYING RIGHT NOW!

why can't i look forward to turning 18 the way almost everyone else does?
with a smile on my face and counting down the number of days!
i'm kinda dreading my birthday for the first time in 18 years because,
that would mean... i'm already halfway thru my papers,
and my fate would be sort of already sealed by then.

i don't know what next to study.
it's quite a range to choose from i realise.
and the worst part: everything ~~seems~~ is damn boring.

gary's nick: PUSH yourself.

GO ANDREA! ONE MORE WEEK TILL YOUR FIRST PAPER, AND EVERYTHING WILL GO BY IN A FLASH ONCE IT STARTS. GO ANDREA GO!

2007-10-19T15:54:00.001+08:00

RAHHHHH!!!

i'm feeling random.
just got back from the bank helping my aunt deposit some cash (if only into my account, IF ONLY)
life's boring when there's nothing exciting to look forward to.
everyone's mugging superbly hard.
sorry i can't do superbly hard (i really wished i could be mugger andrea)
the past few days have been... UP AND DOWN.
i've been doing nice things for the family thou,
like cooking lunch for my cousins,
sending alex off to school and playing with him around the house,
playing in the rain with my cousins during the random downpours, etc.
i should actually be gluing my ass to the seat, studying 24/7!
(and i don't think gluing my ass to the seat meant blogging!)

the week started off really bad (actually last week ended off bad too),
stressing about the Alevels all the time,
getting irritated with almost everyone around me,
and then letting my anger get the better of me.
dalton kinda helped make everything better (THANK YOU DALTON!)
bestie talk with clarence after made both of us feel entirely light-chested.

basically that's sorta been my life the past week,
plus all the doing things for the family and having smiles fest in the rain,
not forgetting me hitting the books daily! (i just need to be more hardcore!!! GO ANDREA!)

I NEED MORE LIFE! Zzzzzzz!

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2007-10-12T12:52:00.000+08:00

06S19... GRADUATED (:

YIHUI: Thank you for always brightening up my school life in SAJC so much. All your randomness and enthusiasm for everything crazy always makes us all laugh. Everyday in school is a total delight with you around (: All the best! (: Loves! (:

CHERYL: It's been nice knowing you, going for OCIP thailand together and all. All the best! (:

MEIXUAN: Hi quiet one, it was nice crashing in on your little study time at the library after BT1, all the best! (: Hope to see you at more class outings (:

ESTHER: Rah Rah Rasputin, lover of the Russian Queen, i'll never forget that! Hahas. It's been real fun hanging out together, all the sleeping, mugging and what not (: All the best! (: Loves! (:

WEIQI: The noisy one! Thanks for everything in PW (: Haha all the best! (:

JESLYN: Jeslyn Jeslyn, all the best! Chill alright, don't stress too much. You can do it! (:

MABEL: SFZ! (: It's been great having you in class, with all your nonsense in class, making all the lessons so much more interesting than they actually seem. All the best! (:

TANYA: GP got alot better with you around, always rebelling Ms Seetoh and all. Haha thanks for all the funds i've gotten from you for all the class gatherings and what not! All the best! (:

HUIMIN: We haven't really spoken much despite being in the same class for such a long time, but it's still been great knowing you! (: Hope to see you at our next class gathering! (:

AMANDA: It's been nice knowing you, bumping into you sometimes on the way to school (last year). All the best! You can do it! (:

CLARENCE: You mean too much for me to put in words, but it's been wonderful having a bestie like you (: Behave like an 18 year old and quit declaring wars with 17 year olds please. All the best babe! Loves! (:

VERNON: It's always nice bumping into you at Kovan in the morning and rushing for school together, and sometimes heading back home together too! (: All the best! You can do it! (:

JINGHAO: It's been great knowing you, thanks for influencing all the guys into speaking Mandarin all the time now. You really helped to brighten up lessons and days in school with all your rubbish (thou in mandarin). All the best! (:

RONALD: Fellow GP lesson ponner, it's been great knowing you and GP lessons have been fun together bombarding Tony. All the best! (:

JEREMY: The quiet one in class whose actually really full of lame nonsense (No, nonsense can't walk. Can it?). Famous eye-candy (: All the best! (:

JASON: It's been nice knowing you. All the best! (:

XUAN FENG: Happy belated 18th birthday (: Hope you enjoyed it, I'm glad it made graduation so much more memorable for you (: All the best SJI Boy! (:

GARY: Supreme babe. Thank god for friends like you. What would my life be like without you around in school? All the best babe! (: Loves! (:

JONATHAN: Friend of SINGA Award, It's been really great knowing you. You really amaze me at how much nonsense you actually love to eat but put aside for the sake of canoing, and how much rubbish talk and humour you actually have in you but kept hidden from the class for so long for the sake of your studies. All the best! (:

RICHARD: Smarty-pants, thanks for being the smarty pants you are and spoiling the market with your set of results. All the best! (:

2007-10-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday was an entire emotional roller coaster ride for me.
from alright to disappointment to frustration to letting it all out to frustration again to emoness and then finally feeling dumbfounded and much better (:
the day kinda started off pretty well,
then went downhill sometime around noon,
(thank you jer and pirom for listening, our little bitch fest was really nice (:)
all the way till 3.30 this morning before everything started to seem much better.

my mom called me a few days back expressing her interest in migrating to australia as a family.
well, i actually thought it'd be a great idea.
i could never really imagine myself leading the ultra hectic life singaporeans lead.
somehow if that were to actually be realised,
my parent's would have to really quickly settle everything in singapore,
and gain approval for migration reallllll quick. (i'm gonna be starting uni real soon!)
so far, only jer and pirom think it's a great idea. argh.
i'm actually not too sure about this whole migration thing.
a few years back, i'd have gone without any hesitations at all.
but now, i don't know.

i felt all frustrated last night with ionic equilibria;
i mean like, i've been trying to understand all the shit for the past two days,
but somehow i still know NUTS (i think even fucking nuts would have been an understatement).
the solutions don't seem to make any sense to me, neither do my own workings.
they're all right in their own little ways which i can't seem to see which right is, uhh more right.
i kinda reached my total frustration point about everything,
so i listened to jer and went off to bed.
while trying to get some sleep,
all the thoughts about how screwed up my life is kinda made me break down.
i'm really starting to lose self respect, like totally.
somehow,
the new sc principal and her stupid words of ignorance kinda weakened my strong sc pride,
i'm no longer sticking to my principles as much as i used to,
not being able to do ionic at all three weeks before the alevels',
and not having studied so many subjects yet is making me feel fucked.
am i wasting my life away?

and then, you, the angel and devil of my life, called.
probing into everything,
asking never ending questions which i totally don't feel like answering.
barely two sentences into my final relenting, you spill.
you start telling me about all the rest of my frustrations, all of it.
those including work, everything else and yourself.
leaving me totally dumbfounded,
so i just lay listening to your every word,
listening to my own frustrations being told to me with additional comments here and there.
and then it's my turn to probe into your 'very important thing to tell you'.
even though i already kinda knew about it,
it was still better hearing it from you than gut feelings (:

it's special,
that's why i'm holding back.

2007-10-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL (:

especially all the girls who've missed out for the many years, just like me!

for the past TWELVE years of my education,
never have i truly ever enjoyed a single children's day.
and i believe i'm not the only one because many other 10 years sc girls haven't either :(
we've spent the many countless children days receiving cool gifts from the school,
all the pretty files, holepunchers, little notepads, little goody bags and what not,
but we've spent the many children days mugging, REALLY MUGGING for our finals.
in fact, my sisters (all three of them) are mugging hard right now for their on-going finals.
but it doesn't matter cos sc always gets two full months off in dec, right since primary one! (:
so while my cousins are enjoying their childrens' day now,
my sisters will, at the end of the year! (:

skipped school today :(
this is bad,
i'm skipping school too often now, FAR TOO OFTEN.
gone are the days of me chiding jer for skipping school!

spent the day with jer at coffee bean seriously attempting to study.
attempting's the word.
i got sooo darn distracted i ended up people watching most of the time.
but seriously, i really enjoy people watching, it's just so relaxing (:
came home early because i felt bad distracting colin and jer.
it's fate (: i caught the LAST EPISODE of my 5.30 show!
average ending, but i still enjoyed it (:
there's nothing much to look forward to these days.
(i've quit both the 7pm and 9pm shows which have changed into boring things)

oh and my goldfish is no longer called mr goldfish.
his name is joseph now. (don't ask me why)
my little 3 coming 4 year old cousin alex named him joseph.
and apparently alex has the ability to talk communicate with joseph;
he told me today that joseph was angry with me because my friend and i were too noisy.

ugly singaporeans are disgusting and boring.
spongebob squarepants seemed more appealing to both alex and myself (:
i don't like relatives who behave like completely disgusting singaporeans without self pride,
and people who offer cigarettes to my grandfather and smoke in front of him.
like hello, if you have a healthy heart and both lungs to spare, that's your problem.
my grandfather is supposed to stay off both ciggs and hard liquor,
and he's been so great at it even the doctors are so proud and amazed at him.
stop coming to tempt him.

ms lee's gonna be returning our bio paper 2 essays tmr.
there's no way i'm skipping school.
i like collecting my own papers instead of having others collect them for me.
quoting wanleng: "i'd rather judge my own grades than let others judge them for me first."
i hope i didn't screw up my bio paper 2 essay!

2007-09-29T01:52:00.000+08:00

PIROM'S PARTY WAS AWESOME!!! (:

seriously,
had a totally great time meeting so many new people.
all the year twelves were so totally fantastically friendly (:
i bet all of us enjoyed ourselves to the ultimate max! WOOHOO!!! (:
both james and i agreed that it turned out so much better than expected (:
drank a little, and i'm still staying OFF cigarettes!
despite persuasions to try just one,
i'm still very proud to say that i'm still totally OFF them!
YES! GO ANDREA! (:

james was crazily funny being drunk;
he started flirting with girls who called whom he didn't know and started yelling her name,
only to entirely regret his decision about phone sex when he finally met the girl. tsk.
he also wanted to burn mine and jer's hair because he said it'd look sexy all grey and curly.
kieran started serious pimping after getting drunk, it was quite funny;
the girls by his side changed so quickly.
but it was totally nice meeting him again after so super long!
gosh but his voice is so different being sick and all.
well, get well soon kieran (: -i doubt you'll read this but yeah.
this week is gonna be nice because kieran's gonna be spending the week at sr gardens with us!
stuart and friends started throwing sparkles around at each other while being drunk,
it was incredibly funny!
stuart (jer's math buddy) was great! awesome looking eurasian with a super nice personality (:
hahaha i think stuart and clarence got along really well chatting on the rocks (:
colin ran the furthest when sparkles came our way! hahaha! it was so funny!
there was a little uhm issue about the ugly boys who get the pretty girls. HAHA.
imagine a little boy (chinese version of daniel radcliffe - but definitely not as good looking haha) running around the tables chasing a very hot and sexy chinese girl with a belt in his hands, all ready to whip her, and the both of them climbing trees together, well actually loads of little things you see in the bollywood videos.
both colin and clarence had a really good laugh over it. i bet it was the main highlight of their night.
and drunk guys (well actually all of the guys) peeing into those mangrove swamp like areas.

well the night was filled with aplenty of crazy laughter,
loads of it because of all the funny and stupid things james did being drunk.
oh my goodness, it's like 2.20am now. hahas.

it's like three weeks to HSC,
and they're all saying three weeks is ages!
i think i'll freak three weeks before the alevels.
and partying like this, would be a definite NO NO!

2007-09-27T18:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTAL (:

school wasn't too bad today! (:
i guess.
seriously overslept.
was supposed to be at school at 9am to check our econs marks,
but kinda missed the alarm and only woke up when gary called at 9am.
so skipped gp and ended up reaching school in time for bio at 11.30 (:
school's nice now, because it's so much easier to attend modular lessons just the way i like it.
the j1s are having study break till friday,
and thus, the sas side gate is always left open without a security guard to verify entrances.
wow entirely brilliant isn't it? (i'm not too sure about the other entrances)

biology was very funny i must say (:
haha gary came up with many initials to curse at ms lee, like;

GND - Go And Die
GSE - Go Suck Eggs

haha it was quite funny because ms lee was so shocked at the hidden meanings! haha.
even jon made a huge fuss over her going back on her word and not returning our essays tmr.
the guys never fail to gang up to make jokes at ms lee.

rushed down to town after school to meet kristal, clara, hannah and beatrix.
crystal jade!!!!! (: lovely lunch as usual (:
aplenty of cheek cramping laughter,
with the occasional moments of utter silence when we're all left speechless thanks to kristal.
hahahahhaha goodness gracious me, she's become super ultra havoc.
but after that hour long phone call with her last night,
i concluded she's become so much more mature now!!! (:
the little walk around wisma was pretty cute,
kristal's hair was like almost standing cos of the static from all her princess balloons.
it was raining all the way back home! -heavy drizzles
but it was pretty nice,
running in the rain never fails to brighten up my day! (:
and the past few days have been pretty great too (:
my life seems pretty balanced, and i really like it this way;
caught up on lots of sleep, much reduced stress, the beginning of niceness year's been great too, coffee beans and cafe cartel with the world's dearest group (even thou i ended up playing with my cafe cartel lasagna - it was totally gross), but it's the quality time spent together that meant more than anything in the world!!! (: PLUS, ultra lovely time together with all my scgs darlings at crystal jade like always.
life feels so great, i love life BALANCED!!! (:

i should go take a shower now,
and complete one of my many sets of incomplete math papers.
i feel so motivated now.
GO ANDREA!!!!! (:

(edit)
oh my goodness!
screw the motivation alright.
yes i did go ahead and attempted to complete one math paper!
but it's so annoyingly hair-tearing i so totally wanna scream, shuffle all the papers on my table and throw everything into the air now!
the yjc math prelim paper 1 is seriously getting on my ass!
the paper is seriously like RUBBISHLY CRAZY!!!!
the entire night: two questions (i started with question 5, just completed 6)
they're so demoralising i don't even remember how many blog's i've surfed and msn windows i've opened since i've started.
thank god for clarence's worked solutions or i'd really be out of my mind now.
i'm referring to them like nobody's business!

why is my math so weak??!!

2007-09-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

tuesday.

skipped school today because i woke up with a slight headache.
had intended to go for chemistry at first,
but then i kinda saw the wrong timing off the timetable (i saw chem as starting at 12pm when i checked at 6.30am, 11.30 when i checked at 9.30am and 11.00 when i checked at 11.15am),
and only realised it by the time i got all dressed.
so chose to hang around the house instead.

slacked most of the day away today,
slacking in bed and grabbing whatever shut-eye i could, wherever i could.
slacking around the house is just such a nice thing to do (:
it's like time for me to finally take a breath away from my fast paced life,
the stressful cycle of school and life which repeats daily,
the boring content of biology facts, chemistry equations, math sums and econs essays. how nice (:
haha okay, i make my life out to seem so pathetic when it's actually not that bad.
i should be the last person needing such a break from life,
considering my "study life" is actually already ~~quite~~ very laxed.
urghhh!!!! i can't wait for all this to end!!!

2007-09-24T23:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESLYN!!! (:

haha pretty exciting day at school.
yihui, esther and myself couldn't stop laughing the whole time!!!
hahahahah jeslyn is just so cute please. HAHA.

the girls had some fun relaxing around the cafe during our one and a half hour break today,
just sitting around, chilling and enjoying the breeze (:
i just love days like these (: so relaxing (:

anyways, tmr's gonna be a really cool day too!!!
we're gonna bring mooncakes and have them in class!
we've cordially invited some teachers,
but mabel's made attendance compulsory. HAHA.
we had some fun messaging ann ang the whole time too!!!
hahahha her messages were so ahlian-ed they were so hilarious!!!

math was good too!!!
gary, esther, mabel, tanya and myself had some fun constructing robots!!!

2007-09-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

TGIF (:

FINALLY,
a break from the continuous release of disappointing results.
stupid paper after stupid paper.
i haven't received any paper pasting a huge grin on my face yet.
but i doubt that'll happen anyways.

~~biology paper 1~~
biology paper 2
~~biology paper 3~~
~~chemistry paper 1~~
~~chemistry paper 2~~
~~chemistry paper 3~~
~~mathematics paper 1~~
~~mathematics paper 2~~
economics paper
general paper 1
general paper 2

chemistry is, by far the MOST disappointing.
well, actually econs too.
even thou we haven't gotten our papers back,
most of us are already aware of our econs grade.
and we're all disappointed with econs.
OH WELLS.

i'm really trying superbly hard not to lose faith at all,
to believe that it's actually still possible to attain a set of really respectable results;
jumping gradeS from where i am now,
to my desired grades for the respective subjects.
sometimes i think i'm unrealistically optimistic.
but then there's no harm being unrealistically optimistic right?

Reaching for the moon may land me amongst the stars! (:

but school on the whole hasn't been too bad i guess.
partly because (quoting gary), i've been attending modular lessons.
like walking into school at 12,
attending two to three hours of lessons before heading home again.
i like school this way.

2007-09-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

YAYYS!!! say hello to a NEW LAYOUT!!! (:
alright prelims are FINALLY over!!! (:
WAHOOOOO!!! (:

for now,
i shall just enjoy my moment.
shan't think of the outcomes i'll have to face come wednesday.
i'll face them,
and feed myself to the crocodiles piece by piece as the results are released.

so it was the a trip to the SINGAPORE ZOOLOGICAL GARDENS today with my love, yihui, esther, cassandra, bryant and michael!!! (:
mel & her classmates were prepared for this trip alright (sunshades, clothes and all)
for yihui, esther and myself,
it was damn impromptu after yihui suddenly decided to visit home.
alright the zoo is so not for me,
especially when i'm so not in the hyper-i-wanna-do-crazy-things mood being so tired.
but still, it wasn't too bad i guess (:
the best part was KIDDY LAND.
seriously.
that room with all the mini balls - wonderful stress reliever please!!! (:
some photos for now, more when i get them from yihui!! (:

so today (monday 17/09) was supposedly THANK YOU DAY!!!
haha had simple thank you messages sent out to my bestie, special and love!!! (:

i'm talking to my bestie now (:
thank god i'm neither of his hamsters.
he's playing with them and watching them do pull-ups now,
after like a million gazillion decades - how neglected right.
disturbing them and disrupting their peace. tsktsk.
i wonder when will be the next time they'll get to see him again after tonight. HAHA!!
but then they're pretty intelligent i must say,
they pretended to sleep on the wheel just so his conscience would take him away,
and then they could get all horny on each other!! HAHA NICE! (:

2007-09-08T03:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!! (:

Bbaaabbbbeeee,
well, so you're finally 18! (:
haha quit laughing at me for only being 17;
or i'll evolve into some other species and turn 21 before you! HAHA.
anyways, nonsense aside,
all the many weeks of "omgosh i can't believe i'm gonna be 18 in xxx weeks/days/hours";
the day's finally here and soon coming to an end,
you're gonna be donned in aplenty of cotton leaves in a matter of months,
but it'll all be in great fun alright? NO WORRIES.
screw the commando mosquitoes and gay sergeants.
they're just rumours till you've experienced them for yourself.
(and grass can't eat you up please)
so you'd better show a little more maturity being 18,
stop taking everything (including my nonsense) seriously! haha
and be happier about everything please. tsk.
you may have wished for a much more meaningful birthday,
but hey! it wasn't that bad;
at least even the UFOs came along to wish you a happy birthday!!! (:

with lots of love,
andrea
8/9/2007

2007-09-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY SPECIAL (:

dear special,
the past many many years of friendship has really been very special (:
all the fun, laughter, gossips and what-not.
i'll never forget all the nonsense we've been through,
the many arguments/ debates we've had over that, uhm scissue,
driving both of us totally nuts;
all the whining, preaching, studying, black foresting (:
it's been ~~great~~ FANTASTICALLY WONDERFULLY GREAT!
all the advice you've given me,
all the wise words you've enlightened me with,
especially during my crazy out-of-my-mind times,
and not forgetting all the fun we derive from being SUPER NICE to john,
here's all the best to all your future endeavors,
may the very special smile be glued to your pretty apple face forever (:
keep smiling as always,
you'll do FABTASTICALLY! as always (:

with lots of love,
andrea
05/09/2007

2007-08-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

SO PRELIMS STARTS TMR!!!

the word best at describing my situation: FUCKED.

for kind souls out there,
you can either invite all the crocodiles over to my place like RIGHT NOW,
or you could choose to sponsor me a trip down to the crocodile enclosure in the croc farm.
i'd appreciate it very much, thank you.

a couple of breakdowns over the past two days.
i felt very HOMESICK.
i missed MY DADDY.

all those crazy noisy monkeys,
although really noisy at times,
really could serve as a stress-reliever.

my mom laughed at me when i told her that i missed him.
quoting her:

"irritating right? useless and good-for-nothing right?"

alright daddy, i take all my words back.
i always only meant them in a fit of anger whenever you pissed me off.
he's the best daddy in the whole wide world (:

alright so i told them i'll be back on thursday (:
yes i've got a long weekend planned already.

island creamery with alevia thurs afternoon
facial with my mummy dearest on thurs in the evening
john's birthday stuffies on friday
coffee club with the family friday evening
saturday get-together at my aunt's place

i'm trying to squeeze in a haircut too!!
someone please remind me that prelims don't end thursday.

2007-08-12T14:31:00.000+08:00

alright,
just spent about three hours studying for the econs case study tmr (:
all's good (for the econs case study only, unfortunately)
wasn't too bad i guess.
i'm hoping to make today the most productive of my long weekend.
wasted a few days away,
never realising it at all until the end of the day,
when clarence asks me of my day's productiveness,
and all i recall doing is 2-3 math sums (with reference to the answers at that)

alright,
so it's econs international trade down for now.
maybe i'll be studious enough to do some math and chem later on (:

study date bestie?

2007-08-10T15:34:00.000+08:00

urgh. i'm pissed.
i can't even seem to be able to solve a single area/volume question at all.
even after referring to ms chee's solution sets,
i'm still doing the questions blindly!
i'm not even using my brains.
omg hello andrea's brains, can you please wake up?

omg i hate it when i can't solve maths.
i'm determined not to feel like this during prelims and alevels.

i want an A for prelims maths thanks.
i've been saying that for the longest time,
since common tests last year,
but this is PRELIMS,
there are no more play play exams for me to take for fun.

I MUST GET MY A!

okay,
enough ranting,
back to ms chee's area/ volume.

bye.

2007-08-04T13:35:00.000+08:00

nicholas chia showed me something VERY cute and VERY sweet (:

;the distances we're willing to go for our loved ones;

whatever it takes, anything, just for them (:

false alarms kill me,
they make me feel an extreme emotion one minute,
and place me in the exact opposite the next.
false alarms suck.
someone pleaseeeeee,
any brilliant ideas?

2007-08-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

TGIF.

the weekend's here! (:
and that means three weeks left to prelims ONLY.
somehow i'm not really stressed by that fact.
something is seriously effing wrong.

math tutorial today had some crow making hell alot of noise.
disturbing the class,
like its not noisy enough. HAHA.
gary was desperate with math questions,
grabbing hold of any question he could to do.
and my phone suddenly went into spasms,
vibrating non-stop,
scaring the hell out of me.
clarence had to make it worse,
insulting my phone endlessly as usual. ASS.
sheesh.

hung out quite abit at the library today alright,
wasn't too bad,
managed to read some evolution crap.
and something interesting happened in the library today too!
HAHA TOO BAD. BIG SECRET.
i'm not dumb. tsk.

meeting jeraldine tmr at 6.30am for a morning run! HAHA!!! (:
what a joke, but i'm quite excited.
gonna be running to serangoon gardens for breakfast,
then a nice slow walk back to my place.
WOOOOOLALALALA (:
hope i'll be able to wake up alright. hahas.

tonight shall be an early night.
shower then 9pm show!! (:

goodbye for now, world (:

2007-08-02T22:11:00.001+08:00

haha sorry for the lack of updates,
been feeling pretty lazy,
and nothing much has been going on in my monotonous boring life.
stayed up last night till seriously unearthly hours,
watching BOTH freedom writers and memoirs of a geisha (:
ended up skipping school today cos the day would have been wasted anyways.
rested well at home today alright.
and it's really high time i start getting serious about my work.
it's only three more weeks to prelims,
and i'm still living in my post-BT mood.
this just ain't right.
BT was bad,
and i know it.
there's no reason i should be sitting back slacking for prelims.
WAKE UP ANDREA,
this examination is gonna be a MAJOR deciding factor with regards to your future.

it's only 3 more months.
COME ON SAINTS, LET'S GO!!! (:
we'll prove lim chye tin and mabel chia WRONG.
show them that their way of running the school is totally UNFAIR.
the way they obviously show discrimination amongst the students? WTF.
no wonder SAJC is doing like crap under them.
what they should be hoping for,
is an overall increase in the percentage distinctions for the respective subjects,
and NOT just some student to score straight distinctions.
afterall, a truly excellent school would really want the best for all her students.
the best education, hopefully leading them to the best future.
and NOT just for ONE student to score straight As just so to bring glory to the school.
no wonder they've got to demand respect.

2007-07-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

skipped school today, totally unplanned.
just woke up this morning feeling lackadaisical,
my limbs too jelly, refusing to get out of bed.
so i just happily continued sleeping (:
and well, apparently, clarence skipped school too (:
haha completely unplanned too.
but then seems so i received clarence's message at 3.27am,
about how he'll be ending super early at 9.30am today, and read it.
but i don't even seem to have the slightest recollection of having read it at all.
all i remember is me telling my aunt "i don't know, still considering",
when she asked if i had school today.
haha my mind seems so screwed when i'm completely knocked out.
i better pray hard life will be kind,
and not have anyone let me sign nonsensical contracts whilst i'm fast asleep.

harry potter yesterday with yihui, esther and jeslyn was nice (:
not forgetting the extra sound effects from yihui along the course of the movie. haha.
followed by shopping in town with jeraldine and john,
which wasn't too productive.
all i can say is: my carelessness killed me, and i can only wish for the best now.
and got myself a pretty skirt from the oppt shop (:
made me feel a little better.
slept really really late last night,
playing hangman (:
i lost sooooo many times please.
haha a couple of cheats here and there,
and it got soooo freakingly funny and stupid i couldn't stop laughing.

okay i should make today productive since i skipped school.
and coolness, my special's crashing over (:

2007-07-23T19:14:00.001+08:00

school today wasn't too bad.
some interesting happenings today,
some of which i shall not name specifically.
only, yihui starred and touched. what's next? HAHA!!
let's just pray hard yihui won't get sore eyes tmr.

yihui, esther and i got bored during economics lecture

and in mathematics tutorial, the boys got busy as usual;

jeremy and his ~~funny~~ lame antics (as always)

DIE HARD GAMBLERS (they used to play blackjack using the GC, betting 10 cents)

handphone games always come in useful when you've got 'eyecandy' for a math teacher

2007-07-22T21:39:00.001+08:00

rapture last night wasn't too good.
the climax dances of the concert weren't even SAJC dances.
and it's so nice how our school students show so much respect to the people who deserve(?) it.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (:
last year's was SO MUCH BETTER.
but the company this year was VERY AMAZING (:
(as always!!! )

2007-07-19T22:58:00.001+08:00

so all the block test results are out,
and no, i won't say i've done well for the obvious reasons.
but my results still don't seem to have an effect in scarring me to mug at all.

I NEED TO DO SERIOUS MUGGING ~~SOON~~ NOW!!!

but no, you still can't coop me up.
i can't do life being caged up.
i need to have a balance in life: study and play.
thats how i grew up,
only now i've got to learn to balance it on my own.
the more you force me to sit down the worse it'll get,
and results will prove it.
i basically must have the heart and mood to study; at least a tinge.
putting me in that quiet environment all the time will only build up all the angst in me.
and nothing will go into my peuny brain.
enough is enough.
there's a limit,
but i know it's not your fault,
and i should try to find the heart and gather the mood.

alright i will.

2007-07-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

SKYPE IS JUST SO SIMPLY WONDERFUL (:

yes, i'm so totally falling in love with skype please (:
skyping with my loved ones puts a smile on my face as always (:
i'm on skype now with my darling special friend (:
and it's so nice because we get to talk without having to hold onto the phone (:
had a great deal of fun today (: hahas.
bishan with jeraldine and john,
having a jolly nice time eating chicken rice. HAHA!!! (:
and later on trailing little scgs primary girls. HAHA!!! (:
(seriously, i think bishan is gonna be the next town)
tiny girls clad in our neat blue uniform looks OMGOSHHHHH SO CUTE PLEASE!!!! (:
came home to more fun on msn/skype,
keeping me busy and laughing the entire night,
procrastinating my SGC till now.
i had some fun doing a few pieces of confidential artwork too!!! HAHAS!!! (:
hahahaha too bad they're not mine to post on world wide web.
anywayys,

CHEERS TO THE INVENTOR OF SKYPE!!! (:

and;

HAPPY THREE YEARS TO JER-LIN,
AND MANY MANY MORE TO COME!!! (:

to jer-lin: congratulations!!! (: i'm so glad for you two (: three years is a very long time, and the both of you have been through so much, both long distance and short!!! HOW SWEET!!! and please, i'll want a seat at the VIP table at your wedding alright? haha loves!! (:
p.s. and colin, please stop calling my special fat alright? you're the fat one!! (:

alright, i better go concentrate on my stupid SGC for now.
bye! (:

(editted)
i miss sc.
i miss walking around in the blue uniform with my dark blue school jacket.
the familiar compound i spent 10 years in.
and now some * just came along and transformed this very beautiful school into another no different from those you find in the heartlands.
i don't like you for ruining all MY principal's efforts.
i don't know what you've done to the school,
but what i'm hearing, i'm not liking.

THIS IS THE SCGS COMPOUND WE ALL KNOW:
(some of the photos were ripped off jer and jiezhens')

AND THIS IS OUR PRINCIPAL:

omgosh my emoness is getting from bad to worse;

some video's from ms heng's surprise farewell (the scgs date):

the school song:

the scgs cheer:

pieces of jade and gold (it's the worst, the emoness hit me right thru watching this one):

2007-07-16T19:13:00.001+08:00

EVERYTHING FOR JACOB BALLAS (:

GO 06S19!!! (:

SAY BYE TO ALL THE 06S19 SLEEPYHEADS,
AND SAY HELLO,
TO...
INCREASED COMPETITION FOR FRONT ROW SEATS!!!

2007-07-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

ripped this off www.redsports.sg (:

SCGS defeat Queenstown 39-8 to keep hopes alive
BASKETBALL

South Zone ‘C’ Division Championship 2007 (Girls)
Singapore Chinese Girls’ School vs Queenstown Secondary
Friday, 6 July 2007 at CCAB

Story and pictures by Red Sports volunteer, Lai Jun Wei, a student from Innova Junior College. Thanks!

Singapore Chinese Girls’ School (SCGS) triumphed over Queenstown Secondary yesterday in a 39-8 victory to keep their qualifying hopes alive in the South Zone ‘C’ Division Championship.

#14 Alanna of SCGS keeps pace with Queenstown’s #10 Enik Teo. © Lai Jun Wei

SCGS largely dominated the game as they foiled many attempts by the Queenstown girls from scoring. The SCGS players managed to intercept many balls and convert them into points. Many a time, the Queenstown girls were left chasing the SCGS girls as they dribbled with speed, skill and confidence towards the hoop.

#15 Athena of SCGS goes on a layup. © Lai Jun Wei

The SCGS supporters provided the players with a morale boost with their enthusiastic cheering and screaming with every point scored. Calls of, “Defence! Defence!” kept the SCGS players constantly on their guard against their opponent.

Nazirah of SCGS making a free throw. © Lai Jun Wei

Red Sports caught up with the SCGS coach Chiew Poh Leng after the game and asked her how she was feeling with regards to her girls’ win. Coach Chiew was quite pleased with the team’s performance and felt that they did quite well today. She also added that the team were relatively inexperienced with many of them newcomers to Basketball. Annabell, the SCGS #8 was praised for an outstanding performance in the game. This photographer particularly noticed Athena, the SCGS #15, who had an unique way of marking opponents during throw-ins.

Athena of SCGS about to make a shot. © Lai Jun Wei

Coach Chiew mentioned that despite today’s win, the girls have a slim chance of making it into the Top 4 after their loss to New Town Secondary in the previous match. They face Yuying Secondary next, who are touted to have very experienced players who also play in external clubs. SCGS, who now have a record of 2 wins and 2 losses, need to beat Yuying in order to qualify for the Top 4.

Yu Han of SCGS tries to break free from the attention of Queenstown’s Joey (left, in white) and Hidayah (#8). © Lai Jun Wei

Khoon Ting of SCGS dribbling towards the hoop while pursued by Gan Kui Hong of Queenstown (#13). © Lai Jun Wei

haha yes that's MY sister, highlighted in red (:

2007-07-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

went down to support my love for her rhythmics gymnastics competition today!! (:
she did AMAZING!!! (:
very well done love, we're all very proud of you!! (:

got home and changed before rushing out to meet jer, john, james and kieran for dinner!!
aston's as usual,
only this time, it was james' request!!! (:
aston's must be really good if james and kieran enjoy it as much as we do;
cos whites usually find having western food in foreign land an insult to their country.
the night was LOVELY once again!!! (:
only this time it was filled with LOADS of sweetness,
LOADS more than the other time!!! (:
we got pretty high, talking loads of crap,
like seriously LOADS and LOADS.
my stupid headache from the afternoon didn't go away,
so i got giddy after like one glass.
but still, i managed an entire bottle!!! (: hahas NICE!
slightly tipsy's good (:
we had like chocolate and walnut cakes, apple crumble, etc. to go along with the drinks (:
then went to haato for ice-cream as usual,
rum&raisin, milk chocolate, vanilla, banna chocolate, and whatever not ice-creams!!! (:
then had a little random heart-to-heart with john and james,
when our darling fbs jeraldine and kieran went walking around.
it was pretty nice and sweet (: awwwww.
had even more heart-to-hearts when they got back (:(:(:
it was really nice; like love confessions flying amongst us at the speed of sound (:
and pirom called, stealing kieran away from us :(
then later on instigating all of us to head down to clarke quay for more drinks with him!
but we were all pretty bent on skyping at home instead. (sorry pirom! another day yeah?)

anyways, i'm glad we all had fun tonight.
i'm not sure about them,
but i really needed it.
i'm fucking tired; emotionally, physically and mentally.
at least it makes you realise that you're actually more than just a ___________.
maybe i'm just having weirdly random mood swings,
maybe i really did say right: the both of us can never go down together.
or maybe, i'm really just subconsciously so sick of all this crap (which i hope isn't the case).

AHHHH WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING???!!!

2007-07-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

SINGAPORE CHICKEN RICE REVIEWS!!! (:
(click above to the amazing world of chicken rice!)

haha the chicken rice critics of http://sgchickenrice.blogspot.com:

Kieran McDonald
James Johnson
Pirom Phadoemchit

it's a fairly young blog,
but it'll be constantly updated as these few chicken rice fanatics go around Singapore,
seeking high and low for the BEST chicken rice!!! (:

haha it's a pretty cool blog (:
PLEASE SHOW YOUR SUPPORT!!! (:

2007-07-12T15:42:00.000+08:00

what the fuck.
bio applications paper results were FUCKING FUCKED.
i'm gonna need a really huge miracle to pass now.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
i'm pissed and disappointed.
what the fuck.

lunching with gary and melissa lightened me up a little,
and the walk to the mrt station did even more so.
some stupid guy was smoking,
so my love and i instinctively pressed our noses into our jackets.
so gary suggested us telling him:

"i may have failed bio, but i still know that smoking can kill."

and that little sentence got elaborated along the way, eventually becoming...

"i may have failed bio, but i know that smoking can cause a mutation to occur. like you'd mutate your proto-oncogene or activate your oncogene, screwing your cell division cycles up, and a mass of cells called a tumour will form in your body and you'd eventually die from cancer."

and should he stare at you blankly, retort by saying:

"but even all this bio knowledge couldn't get me to pass bio!"

the three of us couldn't stop laughing all the way.
i saw an aeroplane while walking home,
and it occured to me; how i wanna fly.

2007-07-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

ahh POOF!

i'm feeling oh-so-tired.
watched some korean movie this afternoon during lunch.

ANDREA says:
i just watched some psychic show
ANDREA says:
a real psychic will return even after death
ANDREA says:
burning her in a coffin couldnt kill her
ANDREA says:
throwing her into a boiling sulphur river couldnt kill her either
No money, no honey. says:
same for me
ANDREA says:
a real psychic can bring items up to the dead in heaven and return
No money, no honey. says:
common
ANDREA says:
but the morale of the story was...
ANDREA says:
there are no real psychics, only frauds
ANDREA says:
cos the coffin was a standing coffin with a cave beneath it she could use to escape before they burnt it
ANDREA says:
when she brought items to the dead, she used magic to make the items disappear and did backgound checks on the dead to "convey" a message to their families
No money, no honey. says:
but im a real
No money, no honey. says:
she's a fraud
No money, no honey. says:
and besides
No money, no honey. says:
a psychic
No money, no honey. says:
doenst do all these
No money, no honey. says:
like me
ANDREA says:
ohhhhh i see
ANDREA says:
a true psychic sees no need to flaunt his talent right?
ANDREA says:
only frauds need to prove themselves so they can continue living in self denial
No money, no honey. says:
yeap

HAHA YES UHM RIGHT.

school today was crap,
especially gp; having to complete an entire compre in pouring weather.
all you could find in my mind was: "HOW NICE TO S-L-E-E-P!"
i'll sleep early tonight.
(yeah right)

i wanna hang out at serangoon gardens AGAIN!! (:

2007-07-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

a new green layout for not wearing any green at all the past weekend (:

I'M SICK :(
and it sucks to have your head spinning during GP,
the teacher assuming you're being lackadaisical as usual.
my body is screwed.
i'm falling ill now more frequently than ever.
(i only missed one day of primary school because i sprained my ankle)
and i've never felt so fucked being sick.

to my bestie: be a little more patient in coaxing the pigeon to fly through the hole; haha whatever pigeon hole theorem that is!! i'll never lose faith in you so you shouldn't too! (:

and to my love: chuck your so called stupidity aside for now. you're my love, and i know you can work miracles! i'll be there on friday to support! put up a ~~good~~ great show tmr! (: WOW THE CROWD!! (:

2007-07-06T23:31:00.001+08:00

alright today was a LOVELY day (:
hung around bishan library today with jeraldine, kieran, james and emilies (loo & james' gf).
i think i disrupted their study majorly. HAHA! (sorry babes!)
bumped into my TWINNN!!! (:
hahahahaha her back seemed very familiar, and true enough!
went for lunch together (jeraldine, twin and myself!),
it was awfully fun and gossip pumped.
what else do you expect when you put more than 2 scgs girls together? GOSSIP!!! (:

hung around the library a little more before john came and we decided to leave.
jeraldine, john and i were supposed to head home,
james, kieran and emily (james' gf) were supposed to meet stuart at serangoon gardens.
so jer and i decided to be angels and go with them,
before taking the direct bus home from serangoon gardens.
BUT, temptations drove us further...
finally had my cravings for ASTON'S fed, YUMMMS! (:
RUM AND RAISIN ice cream at haato,
and a mixture of TIGER and HEINEKEN later on in the night. WOOLALALA!!! (:
okay i actually thought i'd get drunk on rum and raisin ice cream :/
there were hmmm psychological effects??? HAHA!!
james was annoying; he shook me and told me i wasn't walking straight. wth.
and the tiger and heineken later on didn't help much either.
but it was all good fun!!!

emily was sooo quiet, i hope she had fun with us.
haven't hung out with them in a LOONNNGGGG TIME please!
there are aplenty of photos but the zipfile is ULTRA HUGE,
the time status now is uhhh 2 hours. yeah.
thanks to james' massive 'movie taking' photo taking skills.
he took like a total of THREE HUNDRED nonsensical shots. IMAGINE THAT.
it's like... CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK CLICK NON-STOP!!!
some of the three hundred photos...

hahahas i'm skyping now with jeraldine, james and kieran,
and it's SOOOO freaking funny!!!
james is AWFULLY drunk and spouting loads and loads of nonsense please!!
haha he's getting all horny on us.
and oooooh!!! i hear timmy!!! hahahah he's awfully cute,
trust me. my goodness!
he's the first boy i've ever fawned over with a maximum fawning time of: 2 days.
HAHA!!! but he's awfully cute. really!!!

2007-07-06T02:29:00.000+08:00

hahaha a conversation between kieran and chia which cracked jer and i up so bad.
i like mass conversations,
they're so much more fun than one to one conversations (:

4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
how do you get long wavy hair
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
i as a chinese
Kieran... says:
well
Kieran... says:
i wake up every morning
Kieran... says:
brush it 100 times
Kieran... says:
then wash with sunsilk extra care
Kieran... says:
3 times
Kieran... says:
nah, just being stupid
Kieran... says:
i just wake up shower
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
no wonder, i use a comb instead and herbal essence
Kieran... says:
and it comes out like that
Kieran... says:
hahaha
Kieran... says:
how come chinese hair sticks up in the air
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
stress
Kieran... says:
ah i see
JERALDINE says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHHAHA
Kieran... says:
good to see jeraldine finds hair secrets funny
Kieran... says:
she uses asian beauty shampoo
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
for asian hair only
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
but its only for women the bottle says
Kieran... says:
apparently
Kieran... says:
id like to try it on angmoh
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
they will die
Kieran... says:
prolly
Kieran... says:
so would you like wonderful and flawless wavy hair like mine?
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
yes
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
please pass on to me your secrets
Kieran... says:
kk ill write an essay
Kieran... says:
it gets me the girls
Kieran... says:
all the girls stare at me
Kieran... says:
could be because im white
Kieran... says:
or my hair
Kieran... says:
one of the two
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
my thoughts exactly
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
one day my hair will truimp
Kieran... says:
bye.. you stressed asian
Kieran... says:
that wasnt racist
Kieran... says:
JUST SO YOU KNOW
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
i already called the police
ANDREA says:
hahahahahahhahaaha
Kieran... says:
AH NOES
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
prepare to be canned
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
the police
4B “谢谢"-承勇 says:
live in concert theatres

my goodness. their conversation was sooo freaking funny.
i couldnt stop laughing for so long please.
they're two big and funny jokes! hahas.

2007-07-05T04:22:00.000+08:00

i'm truly really very disappointed.
being your friend doesn't mean i have to agree with all your actions.
because most of them are fucked up.
you don't treat people, let alone friends like this.
it's just something i really don't agree with.
it's very disrespectful and rude.
none of us find it a tad funny at all.
imagine if others did it to you; i bet you'd fume and disown.

jer and i have always been telling colin and john,
how schools discriminate against each other because of stereotypes,
and all these stereotypes only come about because of the things these people do.
i'm coming to understand why others hate us so much now.
such that "evil scgs girls" and "i hate scgs" comics come about so easily.
but i know it's gonna be alright.
we may take a longer time to impress upon others,
get through their transparency of distrust,
and shake off all the skeptical thoughts others have of us.
but i know our characters will win them over eventually.
i like genuineness.

i never really understood when belinda commented on us,
"that she really respects us, but scgs is really damn scary."
i sort of understand now.
i also finally understand why some aspects of my character have turned out so.
it's because of the environment i grew up in.
i'm not saying anything about regret because i really don't feel so.
scgs has been the best to me.
but the scgs environment has forced me to build a brick wall around myself,
trusting no one else but my dearests.
it was essential for survival.
i can't believe what i'm saying now.
even after being with scgs for ten years, i'm still quite freaked.
what more others who haven't even done a day in scgs blue?

i fell asleep randomly on my bed,
leaving the com switched on and blasting with music, without the a/c.
woke up at three and managed a heart-to-heart with jeraldine.
she was luckier, she managed double: with both kieran and myself! (:
it's been long since i last met kieran! goodness gracious. damn freaking longggg!!
clarence, jeraldine, john, kieran and james all hitting mambo night,
leaving the innocent non-complexed me all alone at home.
but it's alright. i was too tired anyways,
and spent the night watching korean shows.

; you think too highly of yourself. i wouldn't even dream about it.

fuck the expansion of our social lives.
i only want to stick to my close circle of FABTASTIC FRIENDS.
they're all i need to get through life with a genuine smile on my face.
God took away many things from me,
but he blessed me with VERY WONDERFUL people in my life.

CLARENCE: really babe, i can't thank God enough for you. even though things between us screw up real bad sometimes, i just wished you knew just how much you mean to me. i'm not saying this to redeem myself. serious! your casual comment evoked many feelings in me. and trust me, it's not funny saying it the day before i'm supposed to do hardcore eleventh hour biology mugging. but none of that's important now. i'm sorry for taking such a long time to completely open up to you, it's just me. i can't do half the things you do for me, like i really can't read you like you read me (a three little pigs story book). not even close. i probably can't even do one quarter. maybe not even one eighth, and i'm really sorry to and thankful for you.

JERALDINE: my favourite, who can do wonders. you don't know how much you're missed. my heart felt all warm and fuzzy after our little heart-to-heart as always. thoughts of us not gonna be having heart to hearts as often as last time disappointed me, really. i like how we think independently, sharing our opinions on different things and people, having the same outlook on life and how we hang out so much together, knowing each other's friends and all. you know all that's going on in my life, nothing short. it's amazing how despite knowing each other in scgs, that our friendship is totally void of all the bitchiness, and is just really pure and innocent, with total trust and no betrayals. no judgements even. my life would be so empty and lost without you. we will grow older and live the life we've always dreamed of based on our genuineness and capabilities!

MELISSA: my love, often making me laugh endlessly with all the stupid things we both do and say. all the nights spent whining about how stupid alevels can get, fantasizing about our trips all over the world, it's been very long since we last hung out and i really miss hanging out ~~millions, billions,~~ trillions with you, eating our chocolate mouse with a coffee stirrer?! we'll ikea real soon love, i can't wait! you always put a smile on my face, talking to you hypes me up and gets me really excited of our future adventures!!!

GARY: my supreme babe, even though we usually only hang out in school and sometimes after school, very seldom dating each other off school, you still take up a large part of my life. you make school days so much more bearable for me. i wouldn't know what school would be like without you. i manage to confide in you almost about anything and everything about our peers and it's all good fun (: you're my bitch partner in sa, because you're the only one who agrees with many of the things i say! i love it that we share such common thinking!

KRISTAL: even though we don't hang out as much together now, always remember you still take up a VERY large portion of my love. you're still very significant and very important to me, nothing can change that. i'll always be here for you whenever you need someone to confide in, as i always have been. your little weakness is really totally unnecessary because you're both different and appeal to me in different aspects! nothing can change your significance to me because our friendship went through alot of ups and downs, both of us being ever so headstrong, arguing all the time in the past. bear that in mind always!

JOHN: my food buddy, i'm really so sorry for standing you up all the time, like twice in two days. you're always so nice and all, but jer and i always being so mean to you. but i hope you know it's all in good fun with no ill intentions. the harry potter tickets you can keep. i don't wanna seem like i'm making use of you, and i won't allow a possibility for that thought because it will just ruin this friendship and that's totally stupidly unworthy.

FANNY: well, we're pretty screwed now with our own entirely separate lives, but you're still very important to me. being able to confide in you in almost everything and anything and all the time, going out and hitting town with you is always ever so fun and exciting, it always adds a HUGE grin on my face. all the nights we used to spend talking on the phone into the wee hours of the morning, with our mothers nagging all the time, but still gossiping and having so much fun together. maybe you're right. best friends don't have to keep in touch all the time to remain best friends. but i still believe basic hanging out is still very much essential to keep in touch and updated of each other's lives.

2007-06-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

attempted study once again at bishan library today.
thanks to emily who woke me up at 12.15pm (i know, i should have already been out of bed)
emily, nicholas, jeraldine, colin, calvin and fuwei.
attempted study is always useless,
because we always end up VERY distracted.
i went there late, and had to leave early,
thanks to chia who wanted to put his BIG BALLOON at home first before tuition,
and also because i had to get ready for dinner,

CELEBRATING MY GRANDPARENTS' 50 YEARS OF MARRIAGE
AND MY GRANDMOTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!!! (:

2007-06-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 18TH NICHOLAS (:

may all your wishes and dreams come true always (:
you're now considered an adult in the eyes of the law,
so please stop behaving like a little boy alright?
i hope you enjoyed your day with the boys,
it was the least emily and i could do (:
maybe you'd still want them fed to the crocodiles?
haha but nah i don't think so anymore huh.

i've been slacking like a 3 year old nursery kid.
met jeraldine, emily and james today at bishan library for some attempted studying.
but we ended up catching up on all the different gossips.
thus, UNPRODUCTIVE STUDY :(
james was being annoying.
he refused me chicken rice just cos he already had his thanks.
anyways, ~~i got bored studying~~ the library got too cold,
so i went for a little walk around junction8,
and ended up buying a bottle of evian and bite-size fruit tarts for jer and em (:
bite size is good for libraries with annoying librarians walking around all the time,
cos all you've got to do it P-O-P them into your mouth and you're done;
which jer really did: she POPED the entire strawberry tart into her mouth.
and guess what? she couldn't close it after. HAHA!!!

i lied, and managed to lure john to bishan too (trust me, it's hell getting him out of town)
dinner with jer, colin and john after was uhm debatable?
had the same usual debate jer has been looking forward to, with me involved.
things got quite heated up.
but i remained quieter than i usually am when it comes to such debates,
only because some of colin's comments really did strike me.
we know now, and we'll work on it (:

it's always been left, almost never right.
will god reverse all the lefts and grant me all the rights?
please?

2007-06-27T19:52:00.000+08:00

even FUCK is an understatement.

SORRY, ANDREA IS CURRENTLY VERY

UNAVAILABLE

FOR UPDATES AS SHE IS GETTING HERSELF

OH-SO-FUCKING-SCREWED WITH THIS

WHOLE BLOCK TEST SHIT IN AND OUT.

SHE SHOULD SERIOUSLY JUST GO FEED

HERSELF TO HUNGRY AND AGGRESSIVE

CROCODILES FOR A FASTER AND LESS

PAINFUL DEATH.

ANDREA SAYS: GOODBYE WORLD.

2007-06-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

ripped this off my twin's blog! (:

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

i'm really OH SO SCREWED for block tests. like SUPER REALLY.
i should just bang my head into the wall or feed myself to crocodiles.

2007-06-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

okay it's most probably pure coincidence,
but i was friendstering around a few minutes ago,
and chanced upon this on san's profile page.

AND SINCE TODAY HAS BEEN PROCLAIMED BESTIE DAY,
(it's just another of his nonsense i chose to believe.)

HAPPY BESTIE DAY, BESTIE!!! (:

2007-06-19T18:51:00.001+08:00

hmmm i really think i'm losing my mind already!!! HAHA!!!
i just decided suddenly that i'll get myself two goldfishes to put in my room,
and i just walked out to the nearest store to get them! haha!!
here's how random and bored bio got me:

ANDREA says:
tsk
ANDREA says:
i feel like sleeping
ANDREA says:
im at rflp
4B. k c a c s - one step too late. says:
then sleep awhile lo
4B. k c a c s - one step too late. says:
then i dota finish
4B. k c a c s - one step too late. says:
we continue
ANDREA says:
haha i wanna watch my happy fish
ANDREA says:
you know
ANDREA says:
i suddenly feel like buying a bowl of fish to put in my room
4B. k c a c s - one step too late. says:
lol
4B. k c a c s - one step too late. says:
nice
ANDREA says:
hahahahaha hmm i shall
ANDREA says:
2 goldfish hahaha
ANDREA says:
i feel like walking out to the fish shop now

haha yes and off i went,
so yes i'm still at rflp now. SCREWED.
heck, i've got pretty goldfishes (:
here's how my goldfishes are now on my bedside table (:
(my cam's down. so i used the webcam!)

hahahah the naming of my two goldfishes is really quite a funny process!!

ANDREA says:
OMGGGGG
JERALDINE says:
hhahhhhaahahahahahahah
JERALDINE says:
later you buy wrong fish
JERALDINE says:
eat each other up
JERALDINE says:
you will be even more lonely with empty tank of bones
JERALDINE says:
HAHA
ANDREA says:
hahahahahhaha NO
ANDREA says:
I ASKED
ANDREA says:
im not so dumb jer
JERALDINE says:
name them
JERALDINE says:
bitch and bastard
ANDREA says:
OMG NO
JERALDINE says:
HAHA
john! says:
john and jer
ANDREA says:
EW NO
john! says:
see which one die first
ANDREA says:
hhahahahahhahahhaaha

2007-06-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

okay so my weekends don't always go as wonderfully as planned,
my ears don't filter out anything, including words which may cause me hurt;
everything goes in and my brain processes every single word.
i'm angry, disappointed, devastated.
you just have no idea just how you crushed me.
even though i knew all this would come eventually despite my tries,
i still went ahead with what i wanted to do,
stupidly giving myself false hopes that such things don't happen all the time.
but as i grow older, i'll learn.
i'll come to snap myself back into reality whenever such ideas come to mind.
and stop myself from even trying.
because trying comes at a very high cost to me which i can no longer afford.
i'll come to anticipate the pain i'm bringing myself with my stupid actions,
and i'll put a halt to all these eventually.
and when the time comes,
you'd have no right to complain because this is what you've led me to.
you led me in one direction,
only to push me back in the other when you realise how we have different perceptions.
and you still think it's the right thing to do because of your fucking pride.
your world is only one-way.

life isn't as PERFECT as i'd wish it to be.
my life has her fair share of ups and downs, lefts and rights.
it's filled with loads of laughter and tears, hopes and fears.
haha sounds familiar? (think: jade and gold)

i'm feeling very much better now,
thanks to all the AMAZING people in my life,
namely the two people whom i hold so dear: my bestie and special friend! (:

infinity of thanks and love to my bestie for always being so observant and sharp around me, always being the FIRST to realise it whenever i'm upset and all without me having to even say a single word. p.s. you had the same effect on me as i did on you, only you made me laugh first (:

and my dearest special friend, who takes up a large percentage of my time, injecting loads of laughter, fun and hopes into my life. i don't know what i'd do without her, all the secrets we share, and the VERY high comfort level we feel with each other, our weaknesses not applying to each other at all. it's so beautiful! (:

2007-06-17T10:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!!! (:

yayyys!!! so the breakfast i got so excited over last night,
grinning to myself from ear to ear after going grocery shopping and all,
IT WAS A GREAT SUCCESS!!!

hahas i'm so glad i didn't oversleep. thank god. hahas.
so this weekend was and is still gonna be a happy/ very fulfilling one!
thou i know it's gonna be hell unproductive because i don't intend to hit the books AT ALL.
and i'm not even gonna attempt hitting them.
WOLALALALALALALALA!!!! (:(:(:

and yesterday was a very good day for me too!!!
hahas more grocery shopping with the family after my little cold storage adventure!!! (:
mei-di-ya with the family was WONDERFUL!!
not forgetting the very heavenly jap dinner we had,
with loads and loads and loads of sashimi!!! (: my favourite!! (: hahas.
and so as a result, i didn't think of any sashimi melting in my mouth last night before bed.
(i've been doing so for quite a few nights now)
hahas and bumped into yingneng at mei-di-ya with his parents too (:
and it's gonna be APLENTY of food adventures with my food buddy to come,
and more mei-di-ya with my bestie!!! (:(:(:
only spells F-U-N!!! (:(:(:

hahas i'm so glad now,
because my life seems just so complete for now.
i guess i'm really very easily amused with the slightest things huh.
even such a simple breakfast for the family can get me so excited!!! (:
BUT I'M GLAD.
WOOOLALALALALALALALA!!!! (:

and it's fathers' day dinner tonight at my grandma's.
more fun more fun!!! (:

but it's gonna be back to dreamland for now!
good ~~morning~~ night world!!! (:

2007-06-14T10:42:00.000+08:00

ok i had the weirdest nightmare/ dream last night.
hahas whichever i can't decide because there were frightful as well as pleasant moments.
so it goes like this:

somehow we were doing our chemistry paper in shifts,
and we were in the waiting room.
weirdly, i just suddenly remembered i hadn't studied statistics!!
so i went around the room desperately searching for some statistics notes to read.
(i know it's mad, studying stats for a chemistry exam!)
and due to three people falling ill the shift before us,
they had their paper time extended for them,
and so the shift after (us), had to do our paper in the waiting room!
like the invigilator just suddenly walked in and said: "ok your time starts now."
so imagine the excitement when i realised we could do our papers sitting next to someone!
and not only that, with notes on hand too!!
and when we opened the papers,
we found all the mcq questions to be identical to those from a revision paper!!!
hahaha so all of us just started copying and shading all the answers crazily.
the next minute i know,
i'm at the bus stop still shading like an idiot.
this teacher walks up to me and tells me the OAS numbers aren't consecutive,
takes the paper back.
and then i find myself in a shopping centre.
a robbery/ murder occurs so we've got to clear the building.
and i bump into my dad on my way out amongst the crowd,
who asks me why i'm at the shopping centre when i'm supposed to be having exams.
the scene changes again: to a place which seems like an airport.
with escalators all over the place, their signboards showing all the various countries.
i remember seeing HONGKONG.

and then my auntie opens my bedroom door,
making me jump,
and BACK INTO REALITY I WAS. tsk.

i know it sounds crazy. i think i'm mad.
FAT HOPE my dreams would come true please. FAT HOPE.

must be the stress that's getting to me! oh no.

editted:
ripped this off mel's blog (: pretty cool (:

My personalDNA Report

just got back not too long ago from the playground (:
hahas brought alex there to play.
and it's so heart-warming to see him laugh so heartily, and play so excitedly.
had some fun myself too (:
i'm easily amused at the smallest things.
oh wells,
my nose has been sprinting all day.
so much so that i've been typing on msn mostly with my head tilted backwards!
hahas it's crazy.
and my head's throbbing so bad,
all i wanna do is just to slice it open to release all the pressure.
my goodness.
i've been sleeping so much,
desperately trying to cure this stupid headache of mine.
but it just won't go away.

bringing alex to the playground brought back memories of all the fun times i used to have with adrian and aaron when we were little.
hope they'll be back next summer!!! (:

2007-06-13T10:24:00.000+08:00

ok last night was a total nightmare for me please.
i left the com for bed at around one plus,
with my eyes tired, dry and all,
but i just couldn't get to sleep.
all that tossing and turning made me feel really terrible.
no doubt my eyes were so tired they'd shut anytime,
but my mind was racing,
racing with so many million gazillion thoughts.
all the stupid school work related thoughts, and everything else.
totally stressing/ confusing/ what notting me to the MAX.
and once all these settled down,
the theme song for the fairly odd parents cartoon began to ~~play~~ blast itself in my mind.
yes literally BLAST okay.
my goodness, just imagine my desperation just to get to sleep!
shit i think i've been watching too much of the fairly odd parents.
i wouldn't mind leading a life like timmy turner's anytime please.
with two fairy god parents there to grant any wish of mine,
no matter how ridiculous,
and all these wishes easily reversible should they go the wrong way.

if only, i'd wish;
i wish i'd never have to experience tired eyes and hyperactive brains ever again.

2007-06-12T13:03:00.000+08:00

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages.

2007-06-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

i'm so addicted to this song please.

oh wells. i'm so unfocused.
i need to get my act together!

2007-06-10T16:40:00.000+08:00

i spent all afternoon doing ONE organic chemistry question!!
it so totally sucks to the MAX please.
it's driving me nuts;
even after spending soo much effing time on that stupid question,
I STILL GOT IT EFFING WRONG.

and i was damn annoyed, pissed, angsty, etc.
so i started crapping around with john,
and ended up having a heart-to-heart.
so he managed to see a side of me he's never seen before.
thanks john! (:

my stomach's grumbling. FOOD TIME!

; for all the fun and laughter are just so superficial.
i wish life and i weren't like this.
i really do.

2007-06-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

jer crashed today, after sleeping in this morning.
we had some fun last night, chatting till 5.30 this morning (:
our random chatting became a conference with clarence and a little of tsukasa too (:
hmmm SPELLS FUN, JOY AND LAUGHTER!!! (:
and the day was spent doing a little studying, cam-whoring and learning about mosquitoes.
mosquitoes thanks to jer's HSC assignment: malaria movie, brouchure, plus three essays.
it's gonna be hell of another late night for her tonight.
life's fair i guess, last night was heaven (:

2007-06-02T13:41:00.000+08:00

overnight studying at CHANGI INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT with my love and michael (:
hahas uhm it was pretty productive i guess?
and it's really nice studying together!!! (:
loads of fun and laughter too!!! like really loads please!!! (:
just the way so much laughter makes studying less taxing (:

a few things we constantly kept laughing over endlessly:

michael's new hairstyle: hahaha!!! it was SOOO funny please. my love and i were at burger king, both of us with our necks stretched as long as a giraffe's, eyes scanning through the halls searching for michael's familiar face, asking each other: "do you see him?". until i saw a familiar figure, pointed him out to her. hahaha then we both couldn't stop laughing during the course of our walk from burger king all the way to macs. hahas. (i'll upload a photo of michael's interesting hairstyle below as soon as my love uploads it!) hahaha but we both decided michael was damn good looking after seeing another guy at the macs queue with his family. HAHA!!! (:

michael's father's teachings:

"son, this world is filled with sluts out to eat you up"
"any kid who stays out after 12 midnight is a delinquent"

HAHA!!! these two sentences kept popping up over the few hours at macs, and it was hell funny for all of us please. haha my love and i had some fun acting like homeless delinquents, lying on the marbled benches at the skytrain station, and michael acting like some emo-kid. HAHA!!!

INFLUX at macdonalds: hahahaha you know, when all the MILO (perhaps dark bitter chocolate) starts pouring from three hundred and sixty degrees around you, and there's simply nothing you can do about it (maybe except to pray for the best), it really can get quite annoying because all your sense organs get so screwed.

i'm not a perfect person: hahaha we kept laughing over annoying/ adorable siblings!! hahas like mel's brother singing i'm not a perfect person while being chased around the house by his mother with a cane!!! hahahaha omg please.

free show: haha my love and i witnessed a china couple (some scrawny looking guy and his girlfriend with electrocuted hair) making out at macs, in the centre of nowhere. with both of their butts glued to the seat throughout, and the girl's head gradually moving from the guy's head down the Y-axis. OMGGGG PLEASE. the both of us just burst out into serious fits please, laughing so damn loudly. HAHA i think the entire macs thought we were so totally out of our minds.

mental patients run wild: my love and i kept laughing over everything on the way back home in the morning at 6.45am. hahaha laughing so loudly i think the entire cabin wanted to tie us up, tape our mouths and call the institute of mental health. hahaha imagine being drowsy from lack of sleep, having to drag your feet to work, praying hard on your way to the MRT station that you'll be lucky enough to grab a seat for some shut-eye, breathing a sigh of relief when you do eventually get one, only to find loud roaring laughter emerging from two harmless innocent and pure girls disrupting what little sleep you have left. HAHA well my love and i considered that too, and it just kept us laughing even more. we both put ourselves in their shoes and decided that we'd walk up, slap their faces, roll our eyes and tell them to shut up if we were them. so we did TRY to keep our volumes as low as we could. guess our low just wasn't up to even our own expectations. HAHAHAH oh wells!

overnight studying at changi international airport again please!!! (:(:(:
BBQ party tonight!!! (: yayys this week is self-declared GROW FAT WEEK!!! (:

2007-05-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

nan shared something nice with me (:
and so i shall do a good deed and share it with everyone (:

seize the day! says:
lol nice
ANDREA says:
i shall put it on my blog
seize the day! says:
thankyou!
seize the day! says:
LOL
seize the day! says:
compliments to yours truly
ANDREA says:
i credited you
seize the day! says:
lol tell them i sang it
seize the day! says:
HAHAHHA

anywayys, was out studying for uhh 2 hours with chia at heartland mall macs today (:
and met sengwang for a little while (:
i was so nice to him please; i brought him sweets (:
and so we swopped mp3's for the ~~day~~ hour;
me with his creative and him with my k3,
hahaha and so he happily kept changing the songs for me,
so i didnt get to listen to many full songs.
haha but he's got quite a few nice ones i want!! (:
and i completed uhm 3 pages of organic chemistry notes. ~~WELL DONE!!!~~
oh wells, i hope tmr will be a more productive day!! (as i always hope)

2007-05-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!! (:

went home for dinner tonight to celebrate my dad's 53rd birthday (:
the food was really good!!! (:
steamboat, just the way i like it;
chinese style but with japanese sauces splashed across the table and udon thrown in!!! (:
YUMMYLICIOUS!! (:(:(:
and my dad specially cooked two tiny pieces of beef steak for my grandpa, medium-raw (:
my dad had to enter the kitchen despite it being his special day,
main reason being, he's the only one in the house who can do delicious steaks (:

anywayys, i'm so full and so drowsy with all the wine,
but i still haven't showered yet :(
my tongue still hurts after gulping the boiling hot soup down without second thoughts.
how clever of me.

i'm craving for more of that german wine!!! (: yumms!

2007-05-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

lunch @ ichiban boshi with kristal and fanny today!!! (:
omg i almost died from overeating!!! hahas.
usual gossips like we always had early in the mornings over chicken porridge (:

followed by attempted study for like 1 hour,
before deciding that shopping was more appropriate!!
bought myself a top and skirt (:(:(:
seriously, shopping is called retail therapy for an obvious reason!!! (:

more ~~shopping~~ study sessions please!!! (:
studying is my life, my everything!!!

2007-05-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

i forsee this holiday to be a really boring one;
unlike all the other june holidays i've enjoyed the past 11 years of my education,
this one's gonna drive me up walls and through ceilings.

as such, i have a sudden desire to abandon my blog,
leaving it to just rot entirely and die off, decomposing too if possible.

but i doubt it.
this blog is gonna be the only way i can rant all my frustrations out,
i know i'm gonna go crazy all over again, maybe worse than i did in march.
and that was only one week; let alone one month!

(recalled blog post from the march holidays)
OH-MY-GAWD!!!

SOMEONE PLEASE SAVE ME!!!
WHILE EVERYONE IS PROLLY GETTING ALL SIAN-ED WITH ALL THE STUPID NONSENSE TO STUDY, HERE I AM; GETTING HIGH ON BIO AND CHEM!!!
I'M SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZYYY!!! LIKE IMH CRAZY!!!
HERE ARE SOME OF THE CRAZY THINGS I'M DOING...

I'M SMILING AND LAUGHING TO MYSELF.
I'M OPENING MY BEDROOM DOOR TO TAKE THREE STEPS DOWN, STONING FOR 5 SECONDS BEFORE COMING BACK UP.
I'M DOODLING ON MY NOTES HELL-FUGLY THINGS I KNOW I WILL DESPERATELY ATTEMPT TO BLANCO OFF IN FUTURE. (IM SMILING AT THE FUGLY DOODLINGS NOW TOO)

HAHAHA!!! SOMETHING'S SO SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME; SERIOUSLY!!!

and the worst thing? haha my bestie can't even seem to care. maybe i'm beyond hope.
DOESN'T MATTER!!! LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA!!!!

oh wells. abandoning my blog was just a random thought.

2007-05-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

i'm not supposed to be blogging now cos i didn't want to originally.
but since i'm waiting for the a/c to cool down and the water heater to heat up, i shall (:

anywayys, today was a relatively crazy day for me.
had a stupidly annoying pmsy morning,
so easily irritable that even i couldn't believe myself.

followed by sleeping at the library till it closed for lunch! (:
then tea at T3-cube cafe with gary,
which got me feeling quite confused about what i really want in life.
like whatever happened to all the principles i've been strongly sticking to since young?
i got quite pissed and disappointed with myself,
pissed simply because i no longer follow my own set of principles as strongly as i used to,
and disappointed with myself for not even knowing what i want in life.
what the hell happened to the andrea who stuck by her principles no matter what,
living life to the fullest everyday and experiencing true happiness all the time??!!

and training which went by fine (:
little chipping and putting here and there,
with jumali speaking to us in between with bits of his life stories a little here and there,
and it sort of helped me understand the basis of some things.
like i'm kinda less confused now; my mind wavering a lot less, INSPIRED!
so it's good i guess.
how nice the timing of his little prep talk (:

my daddy called me after training on the way to town at about 6pm.
here's how the conversation went:

hello darling! where are you now?
hello daddy. i just finished training, on my way to town for dinner with my friends.
oh i just realised i haven't heard from my darling for so long!
oh yeah i've been quite busy with school and everything.
hmmm oh okay.
but we're meeting for dinner tmr night right! daddy jerry's organising dinner at tung lok!
oh really?
haha yeah you go call him! i told him to find mr chia if he can't find sponsors!! HAHA!!
hahaha!! okay darling then you go have fun with your friends. love you darling. bye!
okay love you too. byebye!

KEY: red - my daddy, purple - andrea

i love my daddy!! (:
i feel guilty not calling him in so long,
and he even misses me enough to call me in the middle of work,
especially now that he's so busy at work with so many things going on.
i'm so sorry daddy, i promise i'll call you more often in future!!! (:

then sushi buffet at parkmall sakae sushi!!! (:
jeraldine, colin, genevieve and john (:(:(:(:
hahaha it was soooo funny please.
but it sucked having to control the flow of soy sauce,
keeping it away from jeraldine and john at all times!!!
crazy nuts wanna spend their last days young at a dialysis centre! tsk.
and jeraldine is always making use of me to scare john whenever he's late.
HAHA!!! and i'm supposed to be nicer to him.
that's gonna be quite difficult especially with jer constantly telling me:

"i told john you're damn pissed he's late. quickly act pissed, he's coming!!"

hahas oh anywayys,
we all had a really good time!! (:

thank you loves (:

a conversation with ms lei jiahui (:

jiahui (: says:
thanks for the sweet little dedication on your blog!
ANDREA says:
hahahaahha
jiahui (: says:
though you spilled some of my unglam moments in the midst of doing so
jiahui (: says:
hahhaha
ANDREA says:
hahahahhaa
ANDREA says:
sounded nice okayy
jiahui (: says:
so to thank you, i shall ....
jiahui (: says:
tell you a joke!!!
jiahui (: says:
(:
ANDREA says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
ANDREA says:
uhm okayyyyy
jiahui (: says:
eh! what kind of enthusiastic response is that huh!
ANDREA says:
WOW OKAY OKAY QUICKLY PLEASEEEE
jiahui (: says:
shit i am damn scared you would scold me
jiahui (: says:
anyway, it goes like:
jiahui (: says:
famer a sells potato
jiahui (: says:
farmer b sells tomato
jiahui (: says:
what does farmer c sells?
ANDREA says:
he plants for them to sell
jiahui (: says:
nope, he sells medicine
jiahui (: says:
cos ... farmer c = PHARMACY
jiahui (: says:
LAUGH PLEASE
ANDREA says:
HAHAHAHA WTH JIAHUI

hahahahha yes i had to survive with jiahui for 12 days in thailand, day in day out.
hahaha i think i'm amazingggg!!! (: hahas.
kidding love, you made my thailand trip so much more fun and meaningful!!! (:

2007-05-24T19:34:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning at 10am unsatisfied,
because my handphone kept vibrating non-stop on my bedside table from 7.30am on!
oh wells,
then i started craving for macs big breakfast,
but me, being too lazy to walk out to buy (i didn't know the delivery number too),
and my grandmother insisting that a soft boiled egg would be much better for me,
didn't manage to indulge in the end.

cabbed to school after that for economics lecture,
then went down to national stadium for the soccer match!!! (:
lunch at KFC with melissa, yihui, alvin, charmaine, bryant, cheryl and germaine.
the match was pretty good,
and the boys really put up a VERY STRONG fight,
never once giving up, persevering till the very end!!! (:
a rather heart-warming sight (:

hahahaha okay fine shuff your what the hell and =.=!!! hahaha i think its funny!!! (:

2007-05-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

colorgenics test

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it's just that people can't seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you'll only accept suggestions under duress.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

2007-05-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

so i read nellie's blog last night after getting back from the rugby match,
and it got me feeling really empty;
all the emotional thoughts started flooding into me.

well, actually no.
all these emotional thoughts have been in me all this while,
only i didn't confide in anyone because i've always tried not to think of it.
or rather, i didn't know exactly how to express it.

i truly miss all my days in SC,
when i could honestly tell myself i was truly happy any day and everyday.
life seemed so perfect then.
there weren't any sad, depressing days.
even if there were, they occurred perhaps like only in 7 of 365 days of the year.
even till today, i still look back,
dreaming about reliving those days with happiness filled to the brim.

maybe the word most suited to describe that really is dreaming.
but your words snapped me out of my dream,
putting me back right where i'm supposed to be: facing up to reality.
i now know that i can never relive those days of mine no matter what happens,
so i'm gonna try my best to stop myself from dreaming anymore!

even though i didn't exactly like some of the things you said,
deep down, all i can say is... i thank god for you (:
for tolerating the full of annoying rubbish, bullheadedness, stubborn and spoilt me.

i'll find that genuineness and sparkle, i promise (:
for myself, for all the people who matter and for you (:

thank you.

2007-05-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

SAJC vs. ACJC RUGBY MATCH!!! (:

hahas SA won by draw difference or something.
but the match somehow ended weirdly;
like councilors suddenly jumping up and down screaming "we won! we won!",
and the crowd of saints just starring blankly at them for a minute there.

met quite a few sc darlings!!! (:
peirong, genevieve, cherilyn, cindy and steffi (:
and not forgetting nellie and xiuhui,
we could almost conduct a SA/AC FOURGRACE gathering!! (:
hmmm we were just short of jessie, joy, siewjing, venetia and sharlene??

both gen and peirong felt threatened sitting on the SA side,
with them both cheering crazily for AC (especially gen),
and all the SAS ruggers cursing and swearing at AC. hahaha.

dinner at corro golden rooster with gen after!!! (:
yumms!!! our before/after aprime hangout,
plus corro for days when town felt like the last place we'd ever wanna be.
lemon chicken rice plus lychee cooler!!! (:
hahahaha one of my aprime must-haves!!!

bumped into constance from 06S19 first intake on the way back home!!! (:
haha niceee!!! (:
quite funny i used to think constance and vernon were a couple back then!! (:
HAHA!!! (:

class photo taking tmr (:

2007-05-19T20:30:00.000+08:00

golf CIP at the institute of mental health today (:
ashvin, wen nan, yan shan, candice, bridget, shuren, lauren, huiping, weiling and anjali.
had a pretty good time.
but it was quite freaky because you could hear all the screaming from everywhere.

but somehow those people have it really bad.
they spend all day locked up,
doing nothing except sit around stoning, fixing jigsaw puzzles and watching karoke.
wen nan asked, they go to bed at 8pm and wake up at 5am.
anywayys, it was quite an experience so i really don't mind going again (:

suki sushi @ hougang point after with nan, yan shan, huiping, lauren and weiling.
haha quite funny talking about so much crap (:
then walking over to hougang mall,
standing outside for awhile,
super amused at the middle aged folks dancing line dance.
HAHA!!! it's quite funky! (:

i'm so tired,
but i hope to study a little tonight.
i know i'm just gonna waste this entire weekend away again.
shall read binomial and poisson tonight!
at least it's gonna be something done!

2007-05-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

sajc vs. mjc soccer match today!

the boys really put up a ~~GREAT~~ SUPERBLY GREAT FIGHT,
but still lost by penalty kick 4-3.

dear heavenly father,
please grant all the boys with the all the steam you can gather to pull them through,
restoring all the confidence and faith they have in themselves,
returning all the smiles to their faces;
because deep in all our hearts,
they're all already WINNERS in every sense of that word.
and please also bless melissa's grandmother with the health and willpower to pull through,
plus melissa and her family with lots of energy and strength to go through this with her.
amen.

when you need someone's advice, my mouth is here
to tell you how you can make everything better.
when you just need someone to listen after a hard day,
my ears are here to listen attentively.
when you're off in some crazy world,
my hand is here to slap you back into reality.
when you feel sad and lonely and you need a hug,
my arms are here.
i'm always here for you.

that has never, and will never change.

2007-05-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

10 mins to midnight.

omg BIOLOGY SPA SKILL A SUCKS MAJORLY PLEASE.
my fingers are so sore from all the writing,
my brain so dry from all the memorising.
and yet, i still can't remember everything.
somehow i feel super saturated and VERY fatigued.

thank god it's friday tmr (:

anyways i discovered the significance behind someone's name today!!! (: NICE!!! (:
it just suddenly occurred to me when i heard the name being called.
quite cool if you ask me (:
i shared my little discovery with gary, clarence, yihui, jeslyn and esther (:
i'm not too sure about jeslyn and esther (even thou they laughed),
but gary, clarence and yihui enjoyed it, i think. HAHA (:
gary couldn't stop laughing for quite sometime (as so he says),
and he kept reproaching himself as to why he didn't think of it sooner;
so i felt quite clever today (:
(other than all the bio spa nonsense)

studied with darling jiahui at the library after OCIP packing;
waiting for the rain to stop (:
packing was FUN and FAST (:
we found some really uhh cute? toys so we started entertaining ourselves!!! (:
haha i missed jiahui so much please.
i miss talking to her till she unknowingly falls asleep!
i miss working together with minqi, bugging her to brush her teeth!
i miss fretting about what to write to gloria, whining endlessly to her!
i miss her sexyback playing over and over again!
i miss placing bricks with her so quickly very effectively!
i miss breakfast, lunch and dinner with her!
i miss SHOPPING with her!!! (she bought the most shoes on the trip - 5!)

that reminds me; i haven't worn a single pair of my 200 baht a pair shoes!!!

anywayys, i'm sort of having mixed feelings about bio spa now.
as much as i want more time to stuff everything into my peuny brain to get my level 8,
i want all my spas to be OFFICIALLY DECLARED OVER ASAP!!!

2007-05-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!!! (:(:(:

2007-05-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

i'm not sure if it's the weather or me,
but i'm in my room now, with the windows and doors all shut,
without the a/c on, but i'm still feeling cold.

anywayys, height and weight today was quite hilarious!!! (:
like how some of my classmates would go nuts for that few grams,
choosing to starve themselves to the very last minute,
and deciding to change into PE shirt cos the tie weighs just so they'll get a nice weight?
a sight i never saw in scgs for my whole 10 years despite it being an all girls school.
and how some of them plus myself couldn't believe the height mr chay took for us.
goodness gracious i've stopped growing!!! :(
and the guys, crazily puffing their chests as high and huge as they could,
to hopefully get that few extra centimeters,
plus jonathan, doing last minute super stretching hoping it'll work miracles,
HAHAHAH SO FUNNY PLEASE.

and jenga for moral education!
hahaha i didn't dare touch it so i conveniently kept procrastinating my turn till it collapsed! (:
my hands were so cold i'm sure it'd have trembled if i were to touch the blocks.
i need to nourish myself;
i have stupid weak hands which tremble at the slightest things.
quoting gary: "wahlao chill leh, it's just a game!"
haha yes i know that, tell that to my stupid hands.
gary and i lied to ms lee that we were having a break after ME so to continue playing,
so in the end, we were all 20 minutes late for chemistry! (:
haha but mr yeo managed to complete what the had intended to so we didn't get it (:

a nice one hour gossip session with emily after school at the popular cafe (:
yayyys!!! i'm happy with the sudden influx of the sc culture i've been quite deprived of.
so emily and i decided we'll ask the alumni to get something together for us after the a levels.
like how during the associate membership briefing,
they had offered to help us organise should we ever decide for one in future,
like how they had organised a gathering that year itself for a batch from the 1960s.
we can always do it ourselves should they decide we haven't left long enough to help us.
it's not a problem at all (((:

TWO chemistry tests tmr.
oh my goodness.
and i still know nuts about electrochemistry!!!
good luck to me;
okay study time!!! :(

2007-05-14T20:51:00.000+08:00

school.

math was super funny today because jinghao, xuanfeng and vernon carried jeremy into class,
with jinghao yelling: "HE CAN'T WAKE UP!!!".
and before you know it, jeremy literally sits up from his horizontal positon,
smiles widely and says, pretending to be surprised himself: "hey! i'm awake!"
the whole class just broke into serious fits for a moment there.
but ms lai didn't find it funny. HAHA!
sorry gary for accidentally drawing on your shirt.

after boring school.

later met peirong, kristal and clara at island creamery to catch up on all the juicy gossips! (:
and coincidentally bumped into mrs susan lee (my p6SE form teacher) too!! (:
she now teaches at nanyang, forming clara's brother's class!
she was there with her husband and daughter nadia! (:
nadia's so pretty now and super cute too!
the last time i saw her was when gemma and i visited the barely one month old her (:

it's super fun meeting up with all my sc darlings (:
its amazing how they just lift all the stress from you for those few moments.
like; you feel so happy and carefree for that little time.
maybe being deprived of my sc darlings has taken away my only source of true happiness.
the happiness that always made me laugh out loud from deep down within,
laughing every single day until my stomach ached so damn badly.
and that definitely wasn't just superficial laughter.
whenever i asked myself if i was truly happy.
the happiness that never failed to give a non-hesitant blatant YES answer,

it's not that i'm deprived of happiness now.
my life is still super exciting and pretty much filled with lots of laughter.
with my dearest bestie, special friend, supreme babe, love and my many many babes,
who never fail to be there for me whenever the road's getting rough for me,
always cheering me up whenever i'm down,
making me laugh all the time; no matter where and when,
bitching with me whenever i'm pissed,
they're all the best friends one could ever ask for! (:

but the effect that we true blood sc girls have on each other,
it's just different.
and this difference is unexplainable, even beyond words.
maybe it's the level of comfort we have developed with each other over the years,
or maybe it's the special bond that holds us all tightly bonded together,
which allows us to recognize even sc girls who are so much older we've prolly never met.

BUT THAT'S THE MAGIC OF BEING A GIRL DRESSED IN BLUE IN AND OUT! (:

2007-05-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!! (:

TO MY DARLING MUMMY!!! (:

AND MY MUMMY SAN YI MA!!! (:

went home for the weekend,
and it wasn't so bad, with the two monsters at my aunt's (:
had KFC at home for dinner on saturday night with my dad (:
having KFC doesn't necessarily mean having oily fried food down your throat okay!
the new KFC melts should be quite healthy i think? hahas.

wasted the entire weekend indulging myself in jodi picoult's vanishing acts.
nothing but that.
and a few hours squabbling with my parents over the placing of maps under the dining table.
like uhhh right.
like my sisters would bother looking during dinner,
especially with the placemats covering everything!
but still, i still did as i was told to pacify them.
my darling father,
being the super perfectionist he is,
spent hours positioning it on the dining table,
taking measurements all over and everything,
while my mom and i did the coffee table pretty quickly.
haha my dad is even more perfectionist than i am please.
he bothers himself with even the slightest details which i usually don't bother myself with.
i guess there's where i got my perfectionist character from.
anywayys, my mom got quite annoyed with his perfectionism and all,
and so when my dad was finally done and it wasn't exactly as perfect as he wanted it to be,
my mom and i just couldn't stop teasing him.
hahaha it's just super fun to tease my dad when he's annoyed,
and see him loosen up eventually.
a secret alevia discovered some time back and we've been using it ever! (:

haha im beginning to love the little talks with my parents,
cos' it's usually quite enriching.
like i'll hear them talking about some happenings in the corporate world,
and sometimes, it's really beyond your expectations how some people can be.
i love my parents the way they are! (:
even though they may be really strict with us at times,
driving us entirely crazy and up the wall,
but i still love them for who they are (:
sometimes, i really thank god for letting me have them as parents,
and not some other random couple you hear about along the streets.

2007-05-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

okay so we're still going to go ahead with the street soccer competition.

as of today, we have a total of 16 teams (:
so you see, we didn't exactly dry up all of our possible alternatives.
yihui, gary and myself gave out a few forms at the cafe yesterday,
and managed to secure a few highly potential teams (:
even alvin chipped in and helped us. THANKS ALVIN (:
i'm not sure who did what today cos i didn't see much.

i've to admit,
without mr yeo's announcement to cancel should we not get a minimum of 10 teams,
we probably wouldn't have put in more effort in publicity,
and may not have gotten 16 teams today.
but that doesn't mean i agree with his doing.
because he wanted to cancel for other reasons which i still don't agree with.

yihui: maybe you should mind your own business since you're not supposed to be involved. you'll be doing yourself a lot more justice.

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what i was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if i could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart
That i left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

2007-05-10T16:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY ADELIA!!!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!!!

hmmm. a few things to blog about.

MR YEO.

and his so-called responsible announcement.
that if we don't have at least 10 teams signing up for street soccer tomorrow,
it'll have to be called off.
personally, i don't see how responsible that would make you seem.
so you think that if there are an insufficient number of teams,
it should be canceled because it'll be unfair to both the players and the sponsors.
have you ever thought of the impression you'd give the sponsors if you really canceled it?
they're not gonna care that it was canceled because we didn't have enough teams,
reason being that's SAJC's internal problem.
they're not going to know and even care that we put in the effort as a class,
but the school didn't bother to support us,
and so we canceled it so to do more justice to their sponsorship.
they're just going to stereotype SAJC students as students who give up easily,
and don't bother to complete what we've already started.
in other words; IRRESPONSIBLE.

so going by your reasoning behind the canceling of the street soccer competition,
if some huge enterprise (e.g. DBS bank) organises some street event,
and after some publicity,
the turn-out is still disappointing and not up to target,
they should just call it off?
i mean, like you said, they would have to do their sponsors justice right?
and we only have such minimal sponsorship. what's more the enterprise?
well, common sense would tell you definitely not.
there's a certain level of reputation they'd have to upkeep,
and even if it should mean the company would have to make a loss,
they'll still have no choice but to pull the event through and make the best out of it.
and when we liaise with the sponsors,
we don't just only represent 06S19; we represent the entire college.
so now, will canceling it really be so "responsible" of us?

some classmates of ours claim that they've run all possible alternatives dry.
I TELL YOU NOT.
putting the damn forms at the student centre?
even within the class, how many of us even step into the SC in a week?
most times, NONE.
and very honestly, quite a few of us didn't even know they were even placed at the SC.
why not put them at a booth in the cafe?
even should we all be away having lessons,
the boxes can be placed there in the cafe for the participants' convenience!
yeah, so what if students take these sheets of forms and use them for rubbish?
so what?!? we had 200 forms printed.
let's be realistic here,
someone will eventually have to take all the leftover forms home to be used as scrap paper.

so a few of us took forms and passed them around as the day went by,
and i really believe we can get the 10 teams for you.
it just simply shows how much faith you have in "your" civics class so called.
don't tell us you're putting your head on the line for us.
it's all just pure rubbish.
you want us to quit now that you sense it may not be as successful as you wished it to be.

i know this blog post will most prolly get to him.
he's made some comments to me in class that has already given himself away.
but i really don't care. this is MY BLOG.

JEREMY AND XUANFENG.

ms lee gave us the remaining 20 minutes of biology to study for the test.
but they got so damn bored studying biology,
they started fooling around with vernon who was fast asleep.
so they each plucked out a strand of their own hair,
and hid it in vernon's hair for the other person to find.
hahaha yihui, gary and myself kept watching from behind and couldn't stop laughing.
haha some of my classmates really never fail to brighten up my school days.

GARY.

who did something really sweet for melody today (:
melody wasn't exactly having her best day,
so gary got a piece of cheesecake for her and left it at the popular cafe with a little note,
asking her to collect it at her own convenience.
so sweet right? HAHA! (:
but he's been awfully annoying to me though,
doing all the stupid childish things to me,
like randomly pushing me into some random classroom while walking along the corridor,
and walking through the classroom doors first then closing it in my face thereafter,
and pulling the twirling gate back to get it stuck so i'd bump my face into the railing.
what the hell.

i should be getting dressed now for dinner tonight!
gonna be celebrating my sister's birthday at swissotel!! (:
some italian restaurant i heard my mom say (:

2007-05-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

hahas jinghao's morning assembly announcement today was really hilarious! (:

"good morning saints, this is jinghao."
(long pause)
"let's try that again. good morning saints, this is jinghao."

hahahaha it was so funny, yihui and i couldn't stop laughing the rest of the assembly.
but it was very well done, at least it captured everyone's attention! (:
alvin found it weird cos he was the only one who couldn't stop laughing in his class.
i guess you'll only find it truly hilarious if you know jinghao personally.
oh wells, school was fine after that,
with gary's "avokardo's constant"...instead of the law, avagardo's constant.
ms choo cancelled economics with us yet again,
cos apparently, she's really sick, and i hope she gets well soon! (:

and gary's worst fears may actually just come true;

WORLD WAR THREE

and hey! i'm not involved (: `HAH GARY!! I'M NOT INVOLVED OKAY!
even though no one's saying much about what happened (maybe few know),
it's pretty obvious what's happened between who and who.
~~simply just watch out for the black faces.~~
sometimes, i think it helps to just let it go and move on with life first,
and maybe thrash things out later on, when you're both feeling less irritable.
but then again, it's relative to the individuals involved.

anywayys, i read an interview with jade seah a few days back,
and she said something really meaningful on cold wars:

"Oh, the 'cold war' thing? I hate to play that game. I think it's such a waste of time. I don't do things like slam phones and not call. You're just wasting three days of your life that you could have been happy. I would rather yell it out."

very meaningful if you ask me. i never really thought of it that way.
i bet many of us never really did.
i don't recall ever slamming the phone down on any of my friends before.
maybe my sisters, but it's different altogether cos' we're sisters! (:
and we quarrel so often it's become nothing really.
BUT STILL, i've decided a few seconds ago,
that i will never slam the phone down on anyone! (:
from now on and forever and ever!!!
partly also because it's really rude.
and since i don't like to be slammed down on by others, i shan't do it too! (:

;biology test tmr. wish me miracles! thank you! (:

2007-05-08T18:40:00.000+08:00

watched spiderman 3 today with the class (:
gary, clarence, jinghao, ronald, yihui, jeslyn and esther (:
the movie was average i guess.
but it was really filled with life's values and loads of motivational talk,
and some parts of the movie evoked some thoughts in me,
like they're quite similar to some things i feel or am going through right now.
it has sorta helped me shed some light on some issues,
but i still need some time to clear my messy thoughts.

haha clarence was shaking his head at me after the movie,
so i was like: "wah he died for his best friend leh!"
and he went "so?". TSK!
it's quite disappointing to see how noble some bestfriendships can be,
like sacrificing the girl you love so dearly and your own precious life just for the other,
and yet most of us take it pretty much rather/very lightly nowadays;
calling almost any tom, dick or harry who comes along our bestfriend.
i mean like; does the true genuine meaning of best friend still exist today?
or has it always only existed in movies and soap operas? hmmm.

however, i'm glad to say;
i've never had more than one best friend in any of the various phases of my life! (:
YES, and i've been very pleased with that fact for a very very very long time now! (:

2007-05-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

ripped this off jeraldine's blog (:

2007-05-05T12:10:00.000+08:00

okay i think i'm doing pretty well (:
haven't been cursing the f-word for 2 consecutive days (:
today shall be my third consecutive day! (:
but i still accumulated a $5 loss on wednesday (day1);
yepps it's so terrible please. HAHA.
the breakdown was $4 for the f-word and $1 for supposed bitching.
i think $5 is more than enough for you thanks.

i forsee this week is gonna be a SUPERBLY stressful and tiring week.
loads of disgusting tests and tests and tests. ewww!

chemistry SPA skill A (monday)
economics macroeconomics case study lecture test (monday)
biology mock SPA skill A (tuesday)
biology respiration and nervous system lecture test (thursday)
mathematics demoivre's theorem & PnC class test (friday)

thank god our usual chemistry test on wednesday is CANCELLED (:

say hello to the new nerd (:

2007-05-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

my day today got off on a horribly bad start.
thanks to my very considerate and thoughtful supreme babe who called me at 6am,
just to ask if there was biology make up today and what time it was.

LIKE SO WOW RIGHT?

disrupting my sleep is the worst thing you can ever do to me please.
like so seriously. sleep is like almost everything to me.

but school was fine i guess,
except for the little attitude swings once in a while,
and the exceptionally wonderful news marcus chan had for us;
POSTPONED BIOLOGY TEST!!! WHOOTS!!! (:
yes, i'm a happy girl (:

biology practical make up lesson @AVA theater was pretty screwed;
firstly i didn't know nuts about anything ms lee talked about.
biology SPA(s) never fail to suck, and they don't give hints AT ALL. damn it.
secondly, our class was damn rowdy as usual, so totally unlike S16 please;
they're like serious and attentive, just the way ms lee likes it.
our class? we're either extremely sian or extremely hypered up.
so we got so extremely bored;
the girls (cheryl, amanda &tanya) started smacking the guys heads,
and putting nonsense in vernon's hair.
yihui started vandalising the little theater desks,
and i started folding paper aeroplanes to fly.
uhm i had intended for a short-distanced, super-powered shot at clarence for being mean,
but it flew right in ronald's forehead instead.
SORRY RONALD! IT WAS PURELY UNINTENTIONAL!!! (:

2007-05-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

okay so basically, i'm on a bet;
and i'm not supposed to use the f-word and think bitchy for ONE WEEK!
goodness gracious me, but it's supposed to rid me of my unglamness.
well i still don't know the exact definition of thinking bitchy thoughts,
so my main focus for now is not to say the f-word.
and seriously, TRUST ME. it's superbly HARD. (shit i almost used it again)
but i really don't have a choice because every f-word i use costs me a dollar.
and i've already lost 4 dollars today, which is actually quite alot.

i actually thought of fluking the number of defaults, but my conscience pricked real bad.
so i decided to be REAL honest! (:
see? scgs has taught me well (: INTEGRITY!! (: ~~uhm and generosity.~~
and please,
don't rebutt me with "if scgs really taught you well, you wouldn't be cursing now."
because i was a really good girl who really seldom, if not never, swore in scgs.
you can verify with jeraldine if you don't believe!

scgs was really like damn strict with all these uncouth terms;
simply because it so totally doesn't gel in with our kimgek image.
like how we'd get thrashed real bad for using the word "shit" even.
(2PR girls would remember bowness yelling her lungs out at the whole class in the balcony because she heard someone murmur "shit", and khong walking out on us halfway thru math because alethea and suning said "shit" and didn't feel the need to apologise)
and how even teachers had no right to tell us to "shut up".
the most they could go was yell for us to "keep quiet".
sajc really led me the wrong way man;
from academic results to attitude to everything else.
see chye tin? maybe without your so called education,
i'd be a MUCH better person thanks.

oh and my darling parents are finally back from germany!!! (:
they seem like they had fun (:
and my mom decided she isn't going for PMT!!!
i should really start studying like NOW because i don't wanna disappoint her.
especially since she has so much faith in me!!! (:
i really love my parents (: they're the world's greatest parents please (: